You Know Me Now

Once Upon A Dream

(Lana's POV)

       I wasn't sure what I was supposed to feel after Hope walked out of the room. I mean, I had just lost my boyfriend of three years, and

untill my shift everything was going fabulously.

       It's not like I could go to my best friend; he just walked out of the room, and out of my life, forever. Now I had nobody. I was all alone in a big and scary world. A world where all the good things leave. A world where you welcome pain just to feel anything.

           I realize the truth in my mind as soon as I think the words. You welcome pain just to feel anything. A sad, slow sime stretches across my face. I know once way that I can feel again. I didn't care what I had to do: I just wanted to feel again.

              I slowly slip out from under the purple and black comforter, my white Sleeping With Sirens shirt riding up to show my pale stomic. Placing my feet upon the floor, I slowly stand, making my way over to the bathroom.

            In the bathroom, I stripped of my clothes and jumped I to a cold shower. I couldn't help but notice how inviting the razor looked. I grab the pink razor bringing it to my wrist, but right as I'm about to cut, spilling my velvet blood all over the tub, I can't help but think, 'Maybe; just maybe, it will all be ok again.'

       That thought stoped the razor an inch before it touched my wrist. If everything was going to be ok, then maybe I wouldn't have to do it. Maybe it would all be ok.

       Walking back over to the bed, nude and shivering from being soaking wet from not drying off after the shower, I lay in my small twin bed and think to myself; 'Someone; please make this ok.'