You Know Me Now

New Perspective

(Rin's POV)

        I was locked in a constant state of depression, and I didn't know why. I didn't go to school, I only went to mandatory pack meetings; my life was being ruined before it had even begun. There was a strange sadness wherever I went, and nobody wanted to be around me.

       Did I blame them? No; even I didn't want to see myself in the mirror. I couldn't stand to see my brown hair or my steely grey eyes.

                My Alpha, Nikolas,  walks I to the room. He scoffes, letting me know that he's tired of letting me waste my life away. But he didn't understand: Who did I have to live for?

                 "Rin," He says in his demanding alpha tone, "Get your butt out of bed and take a shower. I'm tired of smelling your nasty butt." He chuckles,  his enthusiasm for me taking a shower made me laugh. Although it was a weak laugh.

                  ***

      After my shower, I silently desended into the living room. The room was packed from all my packmates being crowded into the same space. I saw friends and acquaintances giving me looks of pity; like they know what I'm going through.

   Nikolas clears his throat,  being subtle in his demands for attention. All of our eyes land on him; it was a demand after all, and we had to follow a demand, no matter how subtle.

    "As you all know, there has been a issue with Beta Rin." He says. You can tell that he just wants to be more casual, but his animalistic personality had broken forth; putting it simple: he was showing us through words who's boss.

   All of our heads nodded. Nikolas lightly smiled. "Well I know what is plaguing Rin." He says, and my ears perk up; I didn't like being in this perpetual sadness,  and he knew it.

  All of us leaned forward on our chairs, wanting and waiting for the answer that could change the way I had been living for a week now. "Bethesda, darling, please come up on the stage." He yelled out to the crowed.

                A moment later a girl wearing a yellow button up shirt with blue jeans and converse came walking up the stage. She had blonde hair with brown highlights in it. I automatically knew who this girl was. "Luna." We all said respectively and bowed our heads.

        Even though he was the alpha and she was the luna, I was mad. I mean, one of thier best friends were in pain, and they couldn't stop stairing I to eachothers eyes long enough to help.

       "This is your problem, Rin. You don't have what Bethesda and I have, so your animalistic side is in pain and is depressed." He said, slowly shaking his head back and forth, almost as if he were talking to a small child.

   Something that he and Bethesda had? I internally chuckled to myself as I noted all of the things that we had different between us. Happiness, a good title, unconditional love... The list could go on and on.

   For some reason my mind focused on the word love. Love....love...Do I really know what that word means? Love...Do I want to jnow what that word means?

        Then the one thing that was so obvious to everybody else that I relised to late. I know know what everybody was talking about. I know why I got the pitying looks.  It was because of one simple, for letter word.

        My face turned into a picture perfect moment of shock as I said one word, barely above a whisper;

         "Mate."