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im sorry for not updating constantly
yall this story will start to speed up because the chapters i have written is not the main part of the story
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it's been a couple of weeks since mark started going to therapy and he was becoming a lot more comfortable with voicing out his feelings to his therapist.
after a few games of trying to get to know and be comfortable with each other, mark felt comfortable enough to talk about whatever came to his mind.
although, he really never talked about why he had to go to therapy, but today, he knew he had to.
"mark, i ask this question every single day since you started therapy, but i will keep asking you it until you are comfortable enough to tell me, but what is the main reason why you are here?"
mark took a huge breath.
"i made a huge ass mistake and i don't know how to fix it properly."
after stating that broad statement, mark started from what in his mind, started his depression again, which was laying his eyes on jackson.
he told his therapist about how jackson just made his mind go haywire because he looked like someone who he liked but betrayed him.
and how his dumbass made the biggest mistake of his life by logging on to his instagram account just to leave a hate comment on jackson.
because of that dumb hate comment it had gotten attention, where people responded back to his hate because they were there to protect jackson, while back then when mark was getting bullied, no one was there for him because everyone was just against him.
it hurt him and made him even more angry, causing him to leave more hate comments.
he was dumb (he's still dumb) but he regrets every single thing that he did because his anger blinded him.
and because of that hatred and anger, he did not realize that jackson could have still felt what mark has felt before whether there was someone protecting him.
and for that, mark really really want to apologize.
however, he did not know how to.
jackson was such of higher social class/status, he could not just randomly ask if he could meet up him to apologize.
jackson was an idol, with millions of fans worldwide. where every move of his was watched. paparazzi and fans following him where ever he went.
no, mark could not just casually ask for a meet up.
he had to do something but he didn't know what.
mark was thankful because the entire time that he was telling his story, his therapist was attentively listening, only speaking to help mark when he choked on his tears.
after mark was done, he finally spoke what he thought.
