My Hereos

A Year Earlier

It was early on a Saturday when I jumped on my sisters bed and waited for her to come out of the bathroom but an hour later she still hadn’t come out so I crept up to the door and turned the handle I pushed the door open slowly my stomach dropped at the sight, on the floor was my sister bathed in blood and an empty pill bottle in her hand

“DAD” I screamed at the top of my lungs after a few seconds he come running in I was kneeling next to her body bawling

“Janice call an ambulance quick” he yelled he picked me up and carried me back into Lilly’s room I cried into his chest “shhh Trin shhh” he rubbed my back and whispered soothing things in my ear but I will never forget the image of my sisters lifeless body on the floor.

Months later…………..

My parents have started fighting on a daily basis, right now it’s the middle of dinner time I quietly push my chair out and run up the stairs I plug my headphones into my phone and shove them in my ears and blast demi lovato on repeat, other than Em  she is the only one keeping me here. I pulled my diary out from under my pillow and started scribbling down my thoughts

Dear Lilly                                                            22/06/2012

mum and dad are fighting again I don’t really know what it’s about but they are really loud.

I have lots of questions why didn’t you say goodbye? Why did you do it in the first place? Why did you leave me? Was it me that made you do it? There are so many things I want to ask you but I can’t because you’re gone and im all alone Em is here but she doesn’t know about my problems, im keeping them hidden.

Thanks. Trinity

I put my diary back under my pillow and lay down I had school in the morning which I wasn’t looking forward to yes I had a boyfriend and my best friend but there was also those girls that bully me and say horrible things about my sister I hate them. At least it’s only a few more weeks and then its summer holidays I was looking forward to them because that meant it was the end of another school year and I only had one more year to go.

I woke up to my parents shouting horrible things at each other so I pulled out my clothes and headed to my bathroom I had a quick shower and dressed quickly then dried and straightened my dirty blond hair, I don’t wear much make up I put on a little bit of mascara and then eyeliner before heading downstairs my dad had left so mum was making me breakfast

“morning mum”

“morning sweetie” she replied as if her and dad had not been fighting, I sat down at the table and mum placed a plate of pancakes in front of me with my pills I frowned

“I don’t want them” I pushed them away

“no you need to take them Trinity” mum pushed them back

“they don’t do anything” I whined

“I don’t care the doctor said you need them I tell you this every morning” she sighed I filled my mouth with water and quickly swallowed the tablets and pulled a face before stuffing my face. I pulled my vans on and grabbed my school bag before kissing mums cheek and walked out the front door I walked down the street and stopped at Embers house she came running out a few seconds after I reached their drive way

“hey Trin”

“hey Em”

“how are you this morning?”

“Great just dandy im hanging with you” I smiled

“oh really” she laughed

“yep”

We got to school we said good bye and headed in different directions I found my locker and pulled out my books for my first class that just happened to be English my least favourite class the teachers a bitch. I walk slowly to my class I saw Darren on the way he smiled and walked over to me

“morning Trin” he took my hand in his

“morning Darren” I smiled

“what’s your first class?”

“argh English” I groaned

“aw no Mrs. Sanders”

“yes she hates me” I whined

“im sure she doesn’t” he smiled

“ok then well this is my stop see ya” I waved and walked into my class sitting at the very back.

The day flew past and it was already lunch period I headed to the library I needed to study for my biology test that we have next week, I pulled my books from my bag and started studying

“well if it isn’t Trinity Parker” I heard the familiar high pitched  voice behind me

“what do you want?” I huffed and turned around

“did say you could talk to me?” she put her hands on her hips

“you don’t own me I can talk to whoever I want” I growled

“excuse me”

“you heard me” I smirked

“you watch your back parker” she growled and walked away.

I waited a few minutes before packing up my stuff and headed to my locker I had music my favourite class I loved singing and I also played the guitar, my heroes started as a band of normal school boys and now they just finished their tour with 1D. I walked in the door and found I was the only one here because I’d come early I smiled at the teacher before sitting in my normal seat at the back next to the window the class flew by we didn’t do much the teacher is pretty laid back so I just listened to music for most of the class.

I pushed open the front door and found mum putting on her shoes

“are you going somewhere mum?” I asked

“yeah im going to have a girls night” she smiled

“oh have fun” I yelled as she walked out the front door I went up the stairs and threw my bag on the floor before sitting at my desk. I opened up my apple mac and went to iTunes should I listen to demi or 5sos? I just clicked shuffle because I couldn’t decide demi lovato ‘skyscraper’ came on first I laid on my bed and sang along. I had an awesome idea to record me singing and make an YouTube account so I chose ‘lost in the stereo’ by all-time low I pulled my camera out of the cupboard and set it up in front of my bed I started the camera I waited a few seconds before I started the music. I posted the video on my YouTube account and put everything away before heading down stairs to make something for dinner I ended up having mac and cheese before heading off to bed.

I woke up in the middle of the night when I heard mum sneak in I quietly snuck down the stairs her hair was messy and her clothes wrinkled but she wasn’t drunk i wonder what her and her ‘friends’ did I shrugged and headed back to my room dad would find out soon enough, my family used to be great but after Lilly’s death mum and dad started fighting, dad started drinking, mum was out most nights with her ‘friends’ I know she’s not out with friends when dad goes on his business trips and mum thinks im asleep she has guys over and let’s just say they make a lot of noise. Dad is barley ever sober unless he’s working so im left to fend for myself most nights and weekends, Em usually comes over but I don’t want her to know about my problems so I have to keep my pill bottles hidden you are probably wondering what I need medication for well I suffer from depression and it all started before Lil died but it got worse after her death people bullied me more and my parents were hardly ever there to help but one day mum saw the cuts on my wrist and took me to see a doctor and ta-da im on medication, but hat mum doesn’t know is I still cut the medication doesn’t do anything I still hear the voices in my head but im never telling her because she’ll just send me away because she doesn’t care she acts like she does but if she really did care she would be here for me not out having fun with her boy toys. I only had the rest of this year and next year till I turned eighteen and I would be able to leave me and Em have decided we are going to move to Australia together we both have jobs and have been saving for years we have had been dreaming about living in Australia since we were 12 so I do have a lot of money I’ve been saving my money since I was 14, plus my hero’s live in Sydney were we are headed. 

SO BRING ON AUSRALIA