Forever

Chapter 5

I run outside and I can hear him running after me. "Selena!" he screams "Wait". He catches me and turns me around. "Get off of me" I scream as tears roll down my eyes. "Let me explain... it's not what you think!" he says short of breath. He grabs both of my wrist and I try to snatch them away but he tightens his grip on them. "She kissed me as soon as you walked in" he says looking at me with a sad face. When he looks like that it makes me feel bad and I want to give in. But this time I fight it. Don't give in, don't give in. I repeat this over and over. He grabs me by the hips and pulls me to him so that our stomachs are touching.

"Get off of me!.. She wouldn't have kissed you for no reason. You guys had to be flirting" I say with anger, my face turning red as the tears drop one after the other. I try and push myself off of him but he only pulls me tighter. "Justin please get off" I say. "Please just don't leave me" he says. Don't leave you leave you what do you mean don't leave you, you cheated on me I think to myself. "It's too late Justin..." I say and I look away from him. He slowly lets his hands slide down from my hips. I look into his eyes and he looks mad.... beyond mad.

I walk back into the house and grab my car keys. I pack a small black suitcase with enough clothes to last me a week. As I walk out of my room I see her and it is taking all of me not to run over there and punch her in the face. I go back outside and Justin is just standing there motionless. I walk up to him and give him a kiss on the cheek because I feel that this is the last time that he and I are going to be together. "Goodbye Justin". I walk to my Neon pink Jaguar the Justin got me for our anniversary and leave. I was going to go to a hotel but I decide to go to Taylor's house so I can talk about this with someone. It takes me about 20 minutes before I finally get to her house and when I park I just sit in the car. I start to cry and I can't stop myself. We were so good... and then he just cheats on me for no reason at all. It hurts so much to think about it.

I finally get out of the car and knock on the door. Taylor opens the door with the broadest grin on her face. When she sees me her face straightens and she looks serious. "Oh my god Selena what's wrong?" she asks and she pulls me inside and takes me to the couch. "Selena what's wrong?" she asks again but I don't respond. All I can do is sit there and cry. But then gather up the courage to talk. "Justin cheated on me" I say, barely whispering. "What!?" she says almost screaming. "What do you mean he cheated on you" she asks. Come on what do you think. "He kissed someone else". She pulls me into a tight hug and it makes me cry even more. "I just don't know why he did it... I've never given him any reason to do this to me". "It's okay. Some guys are just ass holes" she says. I finally pull back and wipe my face. "I'm going to go and get my bags out of the car and get ready to go to bed" I say and leave. It's 9:15 but I'm just so tired by everything that has happened today.

I'm in my pajamas and I see that Justin has called and texted.

* Selena where are you I need to explain what happened today... it's not what you think

* I'm sorry I know I messed up just please let me make it right

* I miss you... And I wish you were here. Just remember I love you no matter what and that you are my first

The last message makes me feel so bad for what I did today. Justin was trying to tell me but I just wouldn't listen. But why should I. Whatever. I decide to stop thinking about it and go to bed for the night. They let me sleep in the guest bedroom. I wrap myself in the covers and drift off to sleep.

I wake up but I don't feel like moving. It feels so weird not waking up next to Justin. I get up slowly and make my way toward the bathroom. I open the door and walk straight across the hallway into the bathroom, closing the door behind me. I stare at myself in the mirror and it looks like I've been through hell and back. Today's Monday and I really don't know what I'm going to do. I don't have a job and I don't go to school so I literally have nothing to do. I go downstairs and in the kitchen where Harry and Taylor are cooking breakfast. It smells so good, probably because I'm starving. "Good morning" Harry says and he walks up to me and gives me a big hug. It takes me by surprise but I hug him back. "Good morning" I say smiling. "Hope you're hungry" Taylor says with an ear to ear grin. "You have no idea" I say. We sit at the table and there is a lot more food than needed, it's only 3 of us. There's bacon, eggs, fruit, waffles, pancakes, blueberry muffins... All of it looks scrumptious. I grab a plate and put a muffin and 2 pancakes on my plate. Harry raises an eyebrow "That's all you're going to eat?" he asks. "Yeah. why should I be eating more?" I ask. "No that's fine" he says and gives me a polite smile. I smile back and we all sit at the table, Harry and Taylor sitting next to each other, and I sit across from them. They have a table that can seat 8 people. "I'm going to get some orange juice. Would either of you like some?" Harry asks as he scoots his chair out. "Yes please" Taylor says. "And you" he asks looking at me. "Yes I would, please and thank you" I say smiling for some odd reason. He lets out a little laugh and says okay. He returns moments later with 3 tall glasses of orange juice. We finish the rest of our breakfast and make small talk about what new songs Harry and his boys are coming up with. "I'll wash the dishes" I volunteer since they have been so nice to make breakfast for me.

"No it's fine I'll do it... Just relax" Harry says. Taylor and I rise from the table and we go into the living room and sit on the couch. She takes my hands into hers. "Feeling okay?" she asks. "I'm fine it's just I'm so used to having him around it feels weird when he's not" I say staring at our hands. She lets out a deep sigh. "Just try and forget about him... you can do better than that" she says. It feels like her words just slapped me across the face. He is the father of my kids how can I let him go I think to myself. "But Taylor he is going to be a dad... I have to tell him" I say. "Anyways I'm going to call my mom and see how she feels about it" I say rising from the couch. I walk to the guest room. As soon as I pick up my phone Justin has left more messages.

*Selena call me when you get this I really want to hear your voice again

* The girl is gone I no longer want anything to do with her... I never did

* I love you and I miss you please come home

I feel so bad, but it's going to take a lot more than sorry to win me over. I call my mom and the sound of her voice is soothing. "Selena, honey how are you?" she asks. I start to cry. "Mom I just miss you so much" I say. "Aww honey don't cry... I'll be visiting soon... in a couple days hopefully" she says through the phone with a mothers unconditional love. "I can't wait" I say laughing while tears are still strolling down my eyes. "But there is something else that I need to tell you" I say taking a deep breath. "What is it honey... did something bad happen?" she asks sounding nervous. "No... well yes" I say. "Justin cheated on me". She gasps so loud, it feels like she's here right next to me. "He didn't" she says. "Yes mom... he did". "This is unbelievable" she says. "I have something else to tell you" and I don't know how she'll react, but I know I have to tell her. "Go ahead honey Selena nothing can be worse than that" she says. Okay here goes nothing. "I'm pregnant.... with twins" I say and I wait for her response, as the silence grows longer between us. she lets out a small laugh. "Please tell me this is a joke" she says and I know that she is a little mad. "Mom please don't be mad" I say. "You're only 19 years old you've barely even lived and you're telling me not to be mad... you haven't even discovered the opportunities out there for you" she says raising her voice. "I'm sorry okay I didn't know that it would happen so soon" I say feeling guilty. She doesn't speak for a couple seconds and then she says "I'm coming down there in 2 days". A part of me feels relieved because she can help me through all of this but another part of me is annoyed because she's going to lecture me about how stupid I am for getting pregnant at such a young age. "Okay I will see you then... Bye" and before she can say anything else I hang up the phone. I walk out of the room and as I'm walking down the stairs I see the door open and Taylor is talking to someone outside.

"No you can't come in because you don't deserve her" She says and I immediately catch on. My heart starts beating faster. "Please just let me talk to her" he says. I nervously walk towards the door. "Let him in Taylor" I say. "But Selena-" I cut her off before she can finish her sentence. "Just let him in I want to hear what he has to say". She slowly moves out of the way and he walks in. My stomach starts forming knots and it feels like lumps are forming in my throat making it hard to talk. As soon as he walks in his eyes fly open and he walks up to me and hugs me tightly. "I missed you so much" he says. He pulls away and he stares at me. "So how is it?" I ask him, to make conversation. He breaths heavily and then says "It's not the same without you... please come back home with me". He looks so vulnerable and it makes me hug him again and hold him tighter. "Justin I-I'm so sorry that I left" I say. He's still going to have to do better than this to get me back. He takes my hand and he leads me to the couch. He sits down first then pulls me onto his lap which is probably the most comfortable place right now. "So...how are you doing?" he asks.

"How do you think you I'm doing" I say with annoyance in my voice. "I know I screwed up... But the only way I'm going to be able to fix it is if you let me show you that it won't happen again... so will you be my girlfriend again?" he asks. I know he's right but I don't want to take that chance yet. Tears start to form in my eyes and shake my head slowly "No... Not yet I need some time to think about it" I say as my eyes start to pool with water. He stands up but I grab his hand. "Wait I have something else to say". "What?" he screams, as his face turns red. "I-I'm pregnant" I say. His eyes fly open as he snatches his hand away. "You're lying" he says as he shakes his head from side to side"No you can't be".He backs away and then with the blink of an eye he's gone.