Forever

Chapter 8

June 21 2013

On the way home from the airport we ride in silence. I already miss my mom and she's only been gone for 30 minutes. I think Justin notices my temporary state of loneliness as he takes my hand in his. "Don't worry baby it's going to be okay" he says to me.

We finally get home and I sit on the couch and Justin then picks me up and sits me on his lap. Moments later he's tickling me. "I hate it when your sad" he says as my laughter fills the whole house. He stops and then I feel a little better, although knowing my mother is gone still makes me feel lonely. Justin shakes me by my shoulders. "Come on cheer up" he says. I smile at the fact that he's being such a good boyfriend. "That's the Selena I know" he says to me. "I'm so scared to become a parent" I say to Justin. He looks at me momentarily and I also see at that moment that he's scared too. "I know we can do this he says. "We're going to be the best parents". His words make me hopeful that we will be great parents and a surge of hope runs through my body. "Come on... Let's do something today" he says to me. "Like what?" I ask.

"Umm I don't know... what do you want to do?"

"Honestly nothing" I say.

He looks at me with a blank stare and I know he's not going to let it go until I get out of this funk. "Come on let's go to an amusement park" he says to me. I just stare at him. "You're kidding me right?" I say. "No I'm actually very serious... I'll call Taylor and Harry" he says and gets up and then lightly kiss me on the lips. He goes to the kitchen counter where his phone is. As he calls I just sit staring into space wondering what I'm going to do when I become a mother. "They said they're coming and they're going to bring 2 of their other friends" he says. I can hear him but I still don't move. Justin distracts me from my thoughts and he picks me up off the couch and tosses me over his shoulders. "Justin what are you doing?!" I scream in a playful way. He runs up the stairs and turns into our room and lays me down on the bed. He then lays on top of me. "What are you doing?" I ask trying to wiggle from under him. He places both my hands above my head. "I'm moving until you get ready get out of this funk and get ready" he says. "Okay fine! Move" I say. A hint of a smile crosses his face and he rises, pulling me up with him.

It's about 1 o'clock when I finish getting ready, so I sit on our bed and wait for Justin to get ready. I'm wearing a white t-shirt and a short white skirt and some baby blue converse, which seemed like the ideal outfit for a hot day. When Justin comes out of the shower he looks SO sexy! He's shirtless and I can see his impressive bulge through his Calvin Klein boxers. "Enjoying the view?" He asks raising one eyebrow. I bite my lip in that sexy way and nod my head. I'm starting to feel so much better already! He walks over to the bed and grabs both of my hands and pulls me off the bed. We're standing face to face and I can feel his bulge on me. "I think this needs to come off" he says in a seductive way as he lifts my shirt off over my head. My breathing spikes as his fingers glide down my stomach. "And this" he says as he undoes my skirt, leaving me only in my bra and panties. He lightly lays me down and then falls on top of me. He kisses me, sending electrical volts through my body as I run my hands through his hair, wanting to feel every inch of his body. Somehow I end up on top of him and just as we're ready to go I hear someone appear in the doorway of our bedroom. "That is so hot" Taylor says. "Oh my god... Taylor what the hell... how long have you been standing there?" I ask getting under the covers, to hide my almost naked body. "Don't worry... I've only been here for like 2 minutes" she says laughing. I had forgotten that I had gave her a key. "Okay get out now I need to get my clothes on!" I say throwing a pillow at her. Harry comes running up the stairs and it only takes him about a second before he figures out what's going on. "That's my boy" he says and he and Justin start laughing . "See even he agrees with me" Taylor says now standing right in front of our bed. "OKAY BOTH OF YOU JUST GO" I say trying to be authoritive, but failing miserably. I get from under the covers to push both of them out. "OMG is that the one I got you for your birthday ?" Taylor asks. It's a pink bra with lace on the top. "It's so pretty she says to me... I have to buy myself one" she says as I push her and Harry out. As soon as their out she tries to say something else but I slam the door before she can get it out.