Apparently, I'm the mean girl

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The day was unusually slow. And it was only lunch time.

I sat at our usual table, waiting for everyone to show up, one by one.

Everyone except Ross did.

Everyone was eating and talking...laughing. While I was just thinking.

Picking at my salad, thinking of why he would kiss Hollie just to deliberately hurt me.

I've been debating on whether or not to go talk to him but...I couldn't really do that.

I saw him in physics. We made eye contact for like a split second. But I could see the anger in his eyes.

I can see right through his mind, and I know he's very angry at me. But why?

What did I do? For the first time, I know that I did nothing wrong.

I mean....if Ross is mad at me, I think I deserve to know why.

Connor: you looking fine in those sweats though, laur.

Connor smirked. Causing me to roll my eyes.

Can he not see that now is not the right time?

Connor: what's wrong baby girl? Why your watering like that?

Hollie: Connor, fuck off!

Hollie shoved slightly. Causing him to nearly fall of his chair.

Connor: alright. Alright....I'm sorry. I just want you to be smiling, baby girl.

He's sweet.

And no, he wasn't flirting with me.

Connor is my friend....even though we dated, he's still my friend, and it's not awkward. Because...why should it be?

People just take things wrongly, and try to make it their own way.

Tommy: pass me the ketchup.

Ross' friends are here. And I know for sure that he won't show up, because he obviously doesn't want to see me. For some super odd reason.

My mom woke me up this morning, because I kinda overslept.

It was extremely late. And I had no time to do my make up, pick out an outfit, or do my hair. So I decided to to really wear make up today. And it kinda just feels amazing and less heavy.

It feels great...well, except for that burning in my chest. Which is literally my heart still breaking.

It's not fully broken yet. But it almost is, I don't know if that makes since. But yeah...my heart is literally on the process of breaking.

"Hey"

I heard his stupid voice, as I felt someone sit opposite me.

Fuck, no.

He seemed fine. Like not bothered at all....like I wasn't even right next to him, fucking crying my eyes out because his dumb ass. What the fuck?