So, I don't know if I've mentioned this, ok, it's probably more like how many times I've mentioned this, but I am frightenend to death. And not just because of Niall's rape-esque personality back there, but because of the fact that I wanted him to kiss me. And that frightens me to death. WHAT IS HAPPENING TO ME?!?!?!
I'm becoming ..... a .... girl!!!!
oh no oh no nonononono!!! That cannot happen!!!!
I just realized what this means.
I'm doing exactly what my mom wants. And right now that's the opposite of what I want. I cannot stand anyone in my family, except my brother...
This is not good. Not good at all. I need to stay away from Niall and avoid feeling for him because I refuse to do anything my mom would want.
Oh and to put this in context for you, I'm currently sitting in my room having a thinking sesh because I have quite a lot of thinking to do. Oh, and I just ran away from Niall and locked my door after the kiss thing in his room....
Speaking of the devil, Niall is currently knocking on my door... UGH can't he read my mind and just know I'm trying to avoid him?!?! Boys....
I opened the door and to my surprise it wasn't Niall, it was Liam.
"Uh, what's up?"
"Um well I brought ice cream!" he said with an uneasy smile.
I understand his hesitiation of talking with me, we aren't realy close, not counting rivalling in the occassional video game...
"Enter my good sir." and then I noticed the flavor, "OOH MY GOD!! HALF BAKED!! LOUIS FORGET YOU, I FOUND MY NEW BEST FRIEND!!!" I could hear everyone laughing including Liam and a faint, "Hey!! Bros before food!"
"That's not how the saying goes...." I yelled back.
"Anyway, what'cha wanna talk about Liam?" I said, shovelling the delicious cream of a cow from heaven itself...
"Um well I couldn't help but notice you seem to umm well uhhh"
"Spit it out!!!"
"Fancy Niall" he said the last part extremely fast.
"What??? HAVE YOU LOST YOUR NUT????"
"No, but it seems as though you've lost yours so I think I'll just leave now...."
"No wait, I'm sorry Liam... I actually do need to talk to you..."
I realized I can't yell at Liam because I might as well kick a puppy and slap a baby, which made me realize if I am going to talk to anyone, my best option is Liam because everyone else is going to just tease me and my brother is just a no because he is really bad at giving advice and he wouldn't understand my anger at mom....
"Uh ok?" he seemed a little hesitant, probably thrown by my bipolar-like mood swing....
"Ok, truth time, the reason I got all yell-y was because you're right and I honestly don't know how to handle these kind of feelings... As you can probably tell, I'm not like most girls and I have never actually liked anyone before... and now... well. I'm pretty sure I like him. BUT before you get all marriage-planning on me... I can't allow myself to feel like this. Its not because of Niall though... I'm pissed at my mom, don't even bother asking why, and she wants me to be all girly, but that is definitely not how I want things to be so she forced me to do this modeling gig, which actually turned out to be this. Just my luck, I know, and now that I actually might like Niall that would be like letting her win and letting her whole mission turn me into a girl a success, but I don't want to please her right now. So please Liam I need your most honest advice!!!"
I avoided looking at Liam while saying all this out loud because it made it easier to say out loud if I said it to the wall instead of a person, but when I finished and looked up at him he actually looked annoyed and angry.
"Well that's a lot to take in.... but my advice? Grow up. Stop trying to please others or in your case, not please others, and just do whatever you want. Do only the things that make you happy and if that thing is dating Niall, then go for it, but don't just avoid him and run away from your feelings because of your hatred towards another person or your fear of a new feeling. That is just plain idiotic and immature. So my honest advice to you is grow up and tell him how you feel."
My jaw was literally on the floor. Who knew Liam could be so blunt? That actually kinda stung, but he's right. I am being immature and letting others control me. And worst of all, letting fear control me.
"Well first of all, props to you for the honesty, but I didn't say you couldn't sugar coat it a little..... but you're right. Thank you Liam. You're like Jesus helping the blind man see, except instead of letting it naturally happen, you just ripped off my eyelids and screamed SEE GOSH DARN-IT!!! But I still appreciate the advice."
"No problem.... Just remember, no one controls you except yourself. Don't talk yourself out of dating a really amazing guy because of a stupid anger towards your mom..."
"Thanks Liam!! Oh and one more thing, share anything I just told you with anyone else and I will rip out the tongue that allowed you to share my secret and make sure you're mute for the rest of your life." I said with a sickeningly sweet smile, "Carry on."
He looked extremely horrified and practically ran away.
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