I woke up to feel a warm body next to me, again, with arms around me. I looked around to find that I'm not in my room, I'm in Colby's. I layed there staring at the ceiling as the moments from last night come rushing in at once. I felt the body besides me shift and a pair of eyes staring at me. "Hey, you okay?" Colby asked in his raspy voice, and I answered honestly. "No." A couple of seconds of silence. "Do you wanna go see her?" He asked. I thought back to the time Jax said she didn't want me to visit her if she was ever in the hospital because it would've made her look weak to her best friend. So I'm going to keep my promise I made to her. "No." Colby sighed and hugged me.
A couple of hours later and I was still at Colby's house, changed into his sweater and sweat pants. It's also when I got 'the call'.Me and Colby were laying in his bed while watching a tv show when my phone started ringing. It was the same number from last night. I hesitantly picked up the phone. "Hello?" I asked "Hello, Jessie Hart right?" The person on the other line asked "Yes, is this about Jax Conner?" "Yes ma'am." By this time Colby turned the volume of the tv down so he could hear. The person cleared their throat before speaking again. "Jax was put in surgery early this morning but unfortunately did not make it... I'm sorry for your lost." I didn't know to do then, run, scream, or cry my eyes out. I just hanged up and stared at the wall, a thousand thoughts running through my mind. This can't be happening, this can't be real, why me? Why couldn't I be in the one dead instead of Jax. I didn't even realize I was crying until a tear dropped from my cheek onto my hand. Colby didn't even do anything, I think he was shocked that something like this would happen. I throw my phone at the wall, probably breaking it and fell to the floor. Slamming my fist into the ground as I cry into the air. Colby got down with me and held me. "WHY ME?!" I yelled. "IT SHOULD'VE BEEN ME." Colby shushed me. "Don't ever say that." I cried into his chest wanting everything to go back to normal.
