The Complications In My Love Life

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My back is against the cold wall. I closed my eyes and started talking to myself again. I do that every time I'm lonely, and need someone to talk to.

"If my mother knows about this, she wouldn't hesitate to blast me to pieces. I just can't help it. Every time I'm close to him my heart does a mini sumersalt and I feel a tingly thing. And when our eyes lock, I can't help but smile. But his mysteriously cute smirk is what makes me actually want to admit a crush for him." I sigh. "But, I would never get that chance to show him." I hesitate.

"To show him I'm not that mean person he sees. To show him I can take a offensive joke and live with it. To show him I'm not that dull soloist person. To show him I can have fun without freezing anyone. To show him the real side of me. The side of me no one knows except myself. The side of me no one has ever gotten the chance to see."

I can feel my eyes welling up with tears. Every time I talk to myself it happens.

It reminds me so much of Danny, my little brother. My father got me so angry, I just froze the whole house, including Danny. My father said I wasn't worthy to be a daughter of Khione. Until, now I have noticed he is correct. Very correct.

If I was worthy enough of being a daughter of Khione, I wouldn't be sobbing over freezing my brother to death. He was the only one that knew completely. I wouldn't of had hesitated before doing all those horrible actions, I would of had acting quickly. I bet my mother didn't even love my father. She was forcing me to do it.

But I'm glad I don't represent my mother. She is a really evil person, that one time I met her she cursed me. She cursed me with these ice powers. She told me to use them against the gods the day I reach the age of 16, but that would never happen.

I hugged my legs and my face went on top of my knees. All these horrible memories just break me down.

After about 10 minutes of sitting in my lonely cabin, I decided to go walk. The breeze was just right, and the clouds were high in the clouds. My icy blue tennis shoes walked across the short grass. I just hoped my jeans wouldn't get green stains. My Camp Half-Blood shirt wasn't exactly tight or flowy, it was just right.

My mother cursed me by 2 different ways. The ice powers and something else. Hate. I have been cursed by hating everyone I meet. Leo, he's a different case.

"Karoline! Wait up!" A familiar voice calls from behind. I turn around and see Leo, I smile slightly. "You walk fast-"

"I know I do, it's just part of me." I say interrupting him. He just smiles. My heart melts (not literally) with his cute way of smiling.

"I was wondering if you wanted," he scratches the back of his neck. I keep walking casually. "If you wanted me to sit with you. You know, so like you wouldn't be so lonely."

I laughed out loud,"You think after 5 years of sitting alone, I need someone to sit with me. I'm good, I kinda like the feeling of being alone. Like not listening to no one, just yourself. It's a nice sensation." I smile nicely.

"Ok, sure. I really don't mind. I'm just tired of my half-sister and half-brothers. But it's fine." He says, it's like he's persuading me into letting him sit with me.

"Fine, you may sit at my very cold and lonely table." The moment the words escape my mouth, his eyes brighten. His brown eyes twinkled with happiness, why would anybody be happy about sitting with me. The girl that wouldn't hesitate to freeze you.

"I've got to go to Archery. See you later." And with that he runs off to archery with Chiron.

I walk to sword fighting. I hate it but I have to try.

Percy, he's the sword trainer, but temporarily. You know, he goes on quests a-lot. But, anyways, he has a-lot of patience.

He hands me a sword with a smile. I smile back. I grab the hilt of the sword with both hands, making frost go through all the sword.

We start with the beginner skills, I can barely manage those, and then go to the level of the normies. But Percy comes back to help me on the beginner skills, it must take a-lot of patience.

"That's all for today. Try to memorize those skills, Karoline." He said after about 30 minutes of useless practice.

"Sure, whatever." I say, I'm not trying to be mean or anything but he already knows I will. I have a knife and I practice with it, kinda. I try but it's to hard for me.

"Hey Annabeth, how was knife training?" I hear him say. I'm just sitting down, practicing my undo spell. I pretty much listen to all their chats, but I'm not a gossiper. I only did it once, for 10 drachmas. I still regret saying it to the Aphrodite cabin.

I finally finish, as I stand up I see something so EEKKish. They. Were. Kissing!

I slowly put the sword down and walked away. I tried to take the memory away but it was so EEEKish I can't take it out.

At least i won't have to live through that, well not yet. I sigh happily as I walk into my really-lonely-and-freaking-cold cabin.

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"Yeah, that would be so funny." I say giggling. Leo and I were just talking about stuff, that involve Chiron, that are funny. Sitting here laughing, it makes me feel good. I don't feel like I don't have the right to talk, with Leo I can say whatever I want and he'll pay attention.

I look at him, and my smile feels warm. He looks up from his food, he looks a little confused. "Do I have food in my teeth?" I giggle, he smiles.

"Nope, no food in your teeth." I say. I look at my food, the food I have rest is for the gods. I look up,"Why do we even have to do this? I'm sometimes really hungry and I have to give my food to the gods. It's not fair."

"Life isn't fair." Leo says with spaghetti in his mouth. It's hard to concentrate with Leo, he just makes me lose it. His bad-boy smile makes me smile like crazy.

"I think it's time to give our food away." I say unexcited.