True Reflections: Scars Saga 3

Coffee First

Chapter 20

Coffee First

I don't know if the pain or the snoring woke me first, but when I woke I was disoriented for some time. I couldn't remember where I was. I didn't know why my left arm was searing with pain. And for the life of me, I couldn't place where that obnoxious snoring was coming from, because I knew it wasn't me.

I rolled on to my back and looked to my right. I was met with a head of sandy hair speckled with gray.

Slowly the events of the previous night began to come back to me. Harry and Jonathan had gone to the Ministry to fight Death Eaters. I had dueled Dolohov, which explained why my shoulder was hurting. And Remus had told me that Sirius... My throat constricted suddenly.

The snoring stopped as he rolled onto his back. The sheets shifted a little exposing a scared and bare chest. I noticed something was off about my clothes too. Remus' eyes were still closed so I took a quick peek to confirm my suspicions.

Yup. Neither of us were wearing any clothes. The rest of the night flooded my mind. Every look, every touch, every...

"Do you mind? You're letting in a draft."

I dropped the sheet, cheeks flaming red. I couldn't bring myself to meet his gaze. So I covered my face with my hand. What did we do?

"Well...first we kissed a little, then we..."

"Stop!" I cut him off. I hadn't realized I'd spoken aloud and now I was even more mortified. "I know what we did, Remus. But... Merlin, what did we do?"

This wasn't happening. Please tell me this wasn't happening. I'm not this type of person. I'm not the sort to casually "hook-up" with my ex...especially when he's likely shagging another girl. I was weak. I was weak and vulnerable, and I needed comfort. That's all. It didn't have to mean anything more than that...

But Merlin! I wanted it to mean so much more.

I sat up and pulled the sheet tight around my body to cover up.

"Oi!" Remus gasped at the sudden departure of sheet.

"Oi yourself," I groaned and grabbed my arm. Every tiny movement of my shoulder sent a flare of pain through my whole arm.

"Where's your tonic?"

"In the lounge," I groaned.

"I'll go get it for you."

"No!" I shouted. The last thing I needed was his beautifully naked body walking around. "You stay...I'll..."

"Mum?"

My whole body froze. Even Remus had the decency to look horror-struck.

"All right, Mum?" Jonathan asked, but I was too paralyzed to speak. "I... I'm coming in."

The knob on the door turned slightly, jarring me from my shock.

"NO!" I threw out my arm as though that would stop him.

"Mum?"

"I...I'm all right. I... I'm just... not decent." I grimaced and I could feel Remus' eyes boring a hole in the side of my face.