There comes a time in a man's life
When he must take responsibility
For the choices he has made
There are certain things that he must do
Things that he must say
Like "I love you"
And "I need you"
"I only want you"
And nobody's going to know
If it's true
I never thought I'd feel this kind of hesitation
My hand on another girl
I wish I didn't have to lie
I wish I could let you know
Cause I love you
And I need you
I only want you
And nobody's going to know if it's true
Valerie - The Weeknd
Carmen P.O.V
I ran as far as i could, until I came across the old tree by the lake where Chres and I shared out first kiss. Just thinking back to that day made my stomach burn with butterflies. That's how I know I still love him and maybe instead of running .. i should've fought for him. I sat by the tree thinking until I heard his voice calling my name, snapping me out of my thoughts.
Chresanto P.O.V
As I sat down beside Carmen, we exchanged quick glances, but haven't said anything to each other. I told Terran to go back to her place, since she planned the cookout and invited the guest, but also because i felt like I was the only one that could get through to Carmen. She sat that running her finger through the grass, looking at the motionless water. I grabbed her hand and stroked it in my palm.
"I missed you" i said finally speaking up .
"I can say the same to you" She never took her eyes away from the water, and that kind of bothered me.
"Can you look at me Carmen? I'm still the same person, nothing has changed?" I gently took her by the chin slowly turning her face, as i noticed a patch of stitches on the side of her face. "What's tha-" Before I could finish she cut me off.
"Nothing has changed? .. You're engaged Chres" she let one tear trickle down her face, then started to let out quiet sobs. Honestly seeing her cry made me break on the inside, wanting to cry too.
"I'm so sorry Carmen .. I want you so bad but i just can't ruin this, i'm already in this with Marissa, there's no backing out baby." I wrapped my arms around her as she continued to sob and wiped the tears falling from her face every now and then. I knew i belonged with Carmen, she my first love, my true love, and should be my only .. But i can't keep hurting her like this, she deserves better. I got to let her go.
"Maybe we should end this?" Carmen spoke up unraveling from my embrace with the same thoughts i had in mind.
"I want us to stay friends because i love you and my daughter unconditionally, forever ." I said kissing her forehead.
"Or we could go our separate ways in life? I mean maybe were not meant to be, don't beat around the bush with it, lets move on" She hopped off the grass knocking the grass and dirt of her pants.
"Wait That's not what I- " She cut me off again .. with the one thing i didn't want to hear.
"Me and Chrissy are moving to New York"
I hate to tell you guys this butttt there's only 2 chapters left !! But there will be a sequel and it is going to be drama filled . So stay tuned lovlies . I really appreciate all the reads and comments, you guys stay making me smile ! Love ya'll !
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