11/11 Reflection || k.nj [ON HOLD]

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A few days after Min Yoongi and I had met up, we had planned to meet up again since we were both much too drunk to start songwriting. At this moment, I'm walking around downtown. I've started to like observing people, the normal people of my country. Sometimes I like to make up little stories of what I think their life is like. Like the old couple, everyone thinks they're such a perfect couple because they've been together for so long.

But to make it funny I imagine them insulting each other like. "Walk faster, you've got that new hip." Or, "I hate it when you breathe like that, it makes my hearing aid go all wonky." I laugh and look over at young children, happy and innocent. And couples sitting on benches together, I wish I had that. I let out a low breath.. I don't really know what to make up of the air, sometimes I think it's chilly and sometimes I think it's warm.

I like this atmosphere though, where I'm no one important. The fact that I can walk around without anybody noticing me, is the best feeling ever. I've always just wanted to relax and walk around my country without a problem. I look up at the sky, a beautiful pink color streaks across the light yellow sky from the sun rising. Strangely enough, it reminds me of some kind of yogurt there is two different colors in it. I don't know why, maybe I'm hungry.

I stomach growls, telling me that I am. I take it deep inhale of the fresh air and decide that I should walk back towards my dorm to get something to eat, it would be much too risky to eat out here and have someone notice me. Restaurants are always packed up the butt. I stuff my hands into the pockets of my coat, and for some reason I find myself smiling. Smiling to be alive, smiling because I feel like a normal person, smiling to show off my dimple, smiling just because. Today is such a good day, I can't imagine today being any different. So the more I think about it, I wish I wasn't alone. I wish I was here with maybe some of the members.

But, the more that I think about that, the more I realize that if they were here it would be much more obvious to paparazzi. We would be spotted in seconds, especially because a couple of the members are always being hunted down by paparazzi. I take my time walking back to the small dining places and coffee shops and small liquor stores near my dorm. I decide today I will eat at the coffee shop, I always like the coffee breads that they have. Though it may not be the healthiest thing for me to eat, I am an adult! I could eat as I please.

I walk up to the front register and take off my mask, stuffing it into the pockets of my coat. "I'd like the coffee bread and an americano." The girl punches everything into the register and I pay for my order, she asks for my name and when I give it to her she writes it on a cup. I turn around and see that it's empty today, maybe it's too early. I never paid attention to the inside of the shop, because I don't like to look around when it's packed in her, in the fear of being caught by a fan. I see that it's actually really nice. The wooden floors, and the delicate table decor is eye catching.

"Namjoon." The girl at the register says. I turn and take my order. "Thank you." I smile at her before dropping some change into the tip jar. I decide to eat my bread and drink my coffee here. When I sit down I realize that I'm not alone, there's a girl in here. I slowly sneak a peek at her, I sip my coffee as I look at her more, she's sitting in front of a huge window. She has medium length hair, so black and silk like that sun reflected off of it. She's wearing leggings with an over sized knitted sweater. She's on a laptop, she sips her coffeee before looking up at me. I get a better look at her face, she has round eyes and a small nose.

Her cheeks a bit pink, I don't know if it's makeup or she's blushing, maybe even the natural color of her cheeks. Her lips a bit glossy, and she had a peachy color on her lids. Her skin is pale, but not a sick pale, more like an natural pale.

Her dark brown eyes meet with mine, my heart starts to pound. She just looks back down at her laptop. I'm a bit confused that she doesn't start screaming and hollering my name, does she not know who I am? I'm slowly take a bite of my bread and I can't quite take my eyes off of her. I'm trying to figure her out, who is she? Have I ever seen her here before? What is she doing on her laptop?