A Beautiful Love

PART 3

(a/n: To my dearest readers, I just wanna let you know that I'm really glad for all of the votes and comments that i'm getting from you guys. I may experience a lot of difficulty in life right now(who doesnt have one? XD) but everytime I re-read your comments, I can't help it but to smile and continue sharing my love for our boys. Khob khun na and enjoy part 3 of Beautiful Love!!)

White's POV

I run to where his room is, before knocking the door I breathe in deeper than I could imagine then let it out all at once. I compose myself and knock on the door. I wonder why but no one is opening the door for me. Didn't Uncle went here? Nah, I don't care anymore, I'll invite myself then.
I grab the doorknob and push the door wide open. I unknowingly drop the phone on the floor while looking at the man lying peacefully on the bed. I slowly walk beside him and reach for his hand. I'm finally glad to feel his warm hand on mine, I don't know what I should feel at this very moment. I might go crazy after this. I brought his thin cold hand on my cheek and and didn't let go of it.
"Captain~~Captain~~ it's me, White,"my tears just kept on flowing endlessly as I call out his name.
"Hey Cap, stop lying down here and lets go out. Look at how thin you are, haha, where did all your fats went off?hey~~my god, Captain, are you just going to sleep there? I'm fucking worried about you, what the hell is this,  oh god," I kneel down beside his bed as I'm brushing his soft hair with my fingers. My body is shaking as I stop myself from making a loud cry.
His face was thinner than before, and I can see some dark circles around his eyes and the crack on his lips  but it doesn't stop me from loving his cute face.
"Why aren't you answering my calls? Why aren't you replying from my emails? Why didn't you tell me about your condition?! Why? Captain~~ Why aren't you opening your eyes~~"I grip his hand tightly but still no response coming  from him.
"I'm sorry White if we keep this from you."
"Auntie, what's the meaning of this?" I know I sound rude the way I asked my friend's mom but I feel so pissed off at the very moment and my heart was filled with worries and questions.
I turn my head to find Auntie and Uncle standing near the doorway.
"Captain has a heart problem, son." I can hear the crack on her voice as she answered to my question but I don't care anymore. I just wanna know everything!
Shock registered all over my face as every puzzle are now connecting to each other.
"Captain doesn't want you to be sad on your wedding day, that's why." I can hear Auntie sobbing behind me but I don't want to look away from Captain's face..
"Crazy worrywart,"I whispered to myself. I gently brushed again his hair and feel the the strands of his hair on my fingertips."How long? And since when did he suffered from this?"
"Since he was ten, son,"It was Captain's dad who answered me.
"He begged us not to tell you so that you'll keep on coming to our house and play with him, haha, that kid always admired you. He said one day when he went back home that he found his hero. Last night, he had his second attack that's why he's not waking up yet. the doctor has told us that we need to have a heart donor as soon as possible." He paused for awhile and gasped for some air and continue.
"Because the moment he'll have another heart attack, it would might be fatal one and could lead him into coma and who knows if when will he wake up again or.... My son is filled with joy and warmness, he never shows weakness but deep inside he is in pain for so long. If only he had not inherited this illness from my father and I can't stop blaming myself from his suffering right now. It should be me on that bed lying, not my son! I'm sorry Captain~~"
"Daddy~~it's not your fault, no one is blaming you. Captain will get mad if he'll know you're blaming yourself, please stop it."
My heart was literally squeezing tightly inside my chest as I look Captain's parents sobbing and totally hurt. Reality struck me hard as I find myself lost in my own thoughts about losing Captain without knowing anything. The pain I feel in my heart is too overwhelming and I literally grab my chest and squeeze it.
"White! are you okay?!" Both of them exclaimed in panic. Despite all of my selfish requests, you never turned me down nor left me alone. I always assume that his okay and everything's fine since he always shows me that dazzling bright smile and cheerful voice...god, why is it too late for me to realize it, how could I? He was there supporting me in my painful days and in my happiest but I......
Thankfully I recovered from the shock and told them nothing to worry.
I should have been there on that time when he needs me, I should have poured more attention to him!
Tears started to run down my cheeks as my heart was crushed from the revelation. How could I never sense it coming? A sudden memory come flashing to me,
I remembered the time when he accidentally left his medicine in my room and that he sneakily went back to get it but I caught him right away. He immediately hid it from me, and I didn't dare to ask after. Another was when we were in high school,both of us were totally got drenched from the rain, after that he was the only one who got a flu and was sent to the hospital and stayed their for a week. I thought that it is only because of the flu but I never thought that it'll be more than that.
"Hey Captain! why won't you join  us playing basketball," one of my team mates asked him.
"I'd love to but I still have my student council duties right after class. So sorry but thanks for inviting me." He replied to us while showing his sweetest smile and I just can't help it but get irritated. Stop smiling to everyone, dammit!
"Oh, well then I'll be going with them. See yah!" I turn my back at him and walk down the hallway with my team mates.
"Sure, have fun White!"
I clench my fist as I remember all of it, there's a lot of hint already but why am I so oblivious about it?!Now I know why he never played football and basketball with me.  How could I be such a fool and a selfish friend! Captain I'm so sorry, please wake up already, please....