Kiss Me Not Her // Junhao

Chapter 3

Minghao's  point of view  

"So? What happened? Tell me ~ " Jeonghan hyung is so freaking thirsty for some romance and drama, just like a real eomma with their children's love life, it's like as if he needs to know everything without a single thing left out. I mean like, Jun said that he saw Aejeong, one of our makeup artists, he said she was smiling at him so he smiled back, that's it! Why is it so interesting? I don't get it! I could say that a boy smiled at me, they wouldn't care, if it was a girl, they'll freak out! Like our freaking fandom consists of more girls than guys! So what, one girl looks at us verses hundreds of them, so what?!

  "Calm down, it's just one girl, we've had over hundreds or thousands of girls look at us, what makes her different." Oh yeah, there is a difference, Jun actually has a crush on this girl. I stand up and walk away from everyone, I'm usually not interested in things like this, so they probably think my attitude is normal right now.

I stand in front of a table, pretending to do stuff with my back facing them. I try not to listen to the conversation by emptying out my head, but when I hear everyone shout and cheer for Jun, I'm pretty sure they all think that she likes him too.

I turn around and walk towards Jun, "Congratulations." I say soullessly , glaring at everyone as I forcefully open the door and slam it shut when I angrily push it closed. 

"What's wrong with him?" I can hear Jun ask worriedly, if only he knew, I wonder how he'd react if he knew about how I felt about him though.

"Let me talk to him." And as expected, Hansol comes out of the room, he's the only person who I told about my problem with liking Jun. At first I thought he would hate me or be disgusted with me being gay, he was actually very supporting and understanding, he still is now.

"Minghao, I know it's hard for you, but try not to show it too much. Can't you just try to like someone else, I don't know.." As good of a friend he is, it won't change the fact that he's the worst at giving advice when it comes to this.

I stare at him as if he said the dumbest thing ever. "You can't say that like it's an easy thing to do. This isn't fifth grade where you can just have a crush on anyone just cause of their looks, I like Jun because he's.. Been there for me since we debuted and the way he makes me feel is just.."

I don't know how to put it in words, but he knows me well enough to understand what I'm talking about. "Okay, but when you see her don't be mean, don't make her feel like you hate her, and don't try to get her fired! Got it?"

I look down at the floor with a pouty face, " I'm not exactly good at acting, so I'll try my best." He looks at me sympathetically. I can't help but feel so pathetic in this situation, up to the point I actually feel bad for myself.

The door opens revealing the other members, "Minghao, I don't know what happened, but I hope it's all sorted out. You can talk about it with us if you need to, okay?" Seungcheol, as a leader, his kind words somehow assures me that it's gonna be okay.

"Yeay! Let's go eat now!" Mingyu shouts out loud, proving that his love for food is.. A lot.

We all head out for dinner, I walk behind everyone else with a gloomy aura surrounding me. "Are you okay?" I feel someone hop on my back, and I see Jun's face over my left shoulder, his presence brightening my cold aura from before. I nod slightly and try to shrug off the chills I'm getting from the feeling of his warm breath on my neck. He's way too close.

"Are you sure?" He asks me again, somehow he manages to lean in closer to my face without our faces touching, pretty sure if he leans in any closer our lips will touch, "I'm sure." I gulp, backing up a bit.

 He backs away as well, but links our arms together, "Okay then, let's go!" He exclaims cheerfully, I wish he won't ever let go.