Kindness. We were all taught it when we were young, but some of us lost the habit as we grew up. I'm sure you're all thinking the same thing as you read this. You're probably thinking to yourself, 'that's not me, that would never be me', but it's everyone. Even if you don't mean to lose it, it just happens.
Does anyone else find it very amusing that people become completely different people in their teenage and adult years next to the kid years? What is this from? Corruption of the heart? Exposing children too early to the real world? Is there really a psychological struggle kids go through when they see that they world is actually more cruel than it seems? When they figure out Santa is a myth, or that death isn't always peaceful and people don't always just fall asleep and never wake up like Sleeping Beauty?
Some people are lucky enough to not have this exposure until later in their life, but some are exposed at a very young age. Would I be a different person than I am now if my parents had stayed together? What if I had never moved away? I made the difficult choice to move away from everything I knew almost two years ago in the summer. What if I had decided to stay in my hometown? Would I be a different person? Would I have ever done the two things that keep me sane on the worst days? Would I be friends with more people over there? Would that friend group not have fallen apart as much? I wonder all the time.. I wonder what would've happened if I made different choices.
It's not that I hate my choices and they're going badly, they're just different. I do theatre, I would've never had the same chances in it as I do at my old school. I probably wouldn't know the skills I know in color guard and wouldn't be so in love with it. Would I not have quit volleyball? Probably not. I quit because of a situation that severed my relationship with the sport I used to love with my whole heart. Would I have done the same there? That one is pretty easy: no. Maybe I would've gone far in that sport, but I didn't. Instead I fell out of love with it.
Choices are everywhere, cruelty's everywhere. We have to make decisions. Have I made the right ones?
Have you?
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Dreams and Thoughts of a Teenage Girl
De TodoMost probably don't want to hear it, but if you're reading, you obviously do or you're bored. This book will be filled with my thoughts of the world, my hopes, my dreams, my reality... my story...
