TRAUMA 《KTH》✓

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Ever since Minri and Younghyun announced their relationship, I can't help but notice, slowly, slowly but sure, Haeun slowly distancing herself from us, from me and I don't like it. But what can I do?

In the other hand, I understand that she's just trying to save her heart from the situation that might hurt her, but I can't hold myself either.

I want to see her.

I need to see her.

One day, I was looking for her but I halted out of sudden when I hear someone mentioned her name.

"Haeun noona. I've been crushing on you for awhile. I-I like you at the first sight, would you like to be my girlfriend?" That voice belong to Hyuk.

He's our junior that has been around Haeun for awhile. I don't really know about him, but he looks like a good guy. I remember she once praised about his good personality. Could it be she will acce-

"Hyuk. I like you too." No, please don't accept him. Selfish me keep chanting.

"You're like a good brother to me. Find someone better than me, you're a good guy. You'll find a good girl." She added and I don't know I should be grateful or worry over her answer.

"B-but why noona? You're a good girl. I don't want any other girl. You're the best for me, noona." He whines but Haeun just smile lightly before mess with his hair.

"I'm sorry, Hyuk. My heart really can't accept anyone right now. Let's remain as good friend, should we?"

And that's how everything started.

Few months later, she moved away and that's when I realize I can't give up on her. I tried hard to looking for her and in the next month, I found her!

Maybe we're destined just to be together, or maybe it's just me?

Without thinking twice, I moved away as well, call me creppy but I want to live near her, I want to see her everyday. Now, we're studying in the same university while doing our part time job as well.

My life is brighter once again after I found her. It was so gloomy and dark back then when she left without any goodbyes. But I'm glad that I made the right decision to look after her.

"I'm sorry, Taehyung. I really want a new start without anything from my past. I want to move on." I remember she told me when I first approach her in this new city.

"Then let's do our new start. Hello, I'm Kim Taehyung, nice to meet you but I think I like you already." I took her hand and do the handshake before she chuckles softly. I missed her chuckles so much that she don't have any idea. "I'll help you move on, noona."

< FLASHBACK ENDED >

Earlier, she just cancelled her plan to went out with some of her girl-friends just because they invited some guys. She has been distancing her self from things like blind-dates, or quickly turn down some guy who tried to flirt with her.

Now, she ended up in my apartment.

Afraid that she also will distancing herself from me, that lie spit out from my lips accidentally.

Now half of me were happy, since she won't makes spaces from me, but half of me were worried.

How could I make her fall in love with me?

Could that even possible, Taehyung?

Sometime I question my self, when will I able to confess my feelings to her?

Now she even really believe that I'm gay.

< YOUR POV >

It's been 3 months since I moved away. I know it's such a coward to run away from my problem, but I can't help it. I feel like they've stabbed thousand times right on my heart.

Younghyun and Minri.

The guy that made me fall in love and turn his back on me with my bestfriend, Minri. The one I told about everything, my feelings toward Younghyun. I feel so embarrassed toward her ever since.

The guy that I told her about end up choosing her instead of me. How pathetic I am to think that he love me.

How hard I tried to hate on them, I just can't. I really can't against two love-birds who love each other. So, for the sake of everyone's good, I moved away.

To my surprise, Taehyung found me. Even though I told him I wanted a new start, without anything related to my past, he still insist. He even act like new stranger just so I can accept him to be around me.

I know I can't never against his wants.

So I just let him do whatever he wants, it's good to have him around though. Now, even though the new fact about him got me shocked, he's still my only best friend that I can trust and lean on until now.

"I'll be back."  Taehyung muttered once someone's ring his bell.

I heard he talked about his guest vividly, which I suspect to be our landlady. Yeah, me and Taehyung lives in the same building, just different apartment.

"What's wrong?" I asked when he came back with unreadable expression.

"Monthly fee, I haven't pay her for last 2 months." He shrug and thow himself back on the couch beside me.

I shutted my lips when I remember he got fired from his previous part time job, because of me.

Well, it was when one of my colleagues force me to go on blind dates, and I called Taehyung to help me. Then he came to me in instant and pretend as my boyfriend.

I don't know that he got fired after that. He only told me about it in the next 3 days. I feel so guilty after that, but of course he wouldn't let me think about it.

"It's alright. The salary isn't even that high. I'll find new one soon."

I really owe him a lot.

"Tae, how about you move in to my apartment instead?"