TRAUMA 《KTH》✓

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Right behind us, it's Younghyun kissing Minri, who's Haeun's bestfriend.

I just don't understand. I was so sure Younghyun is in love with Haeun. I bet she also think the same and everyone in this university also. But why did he kiss another girl, moreover her bestfriend.

Deep inside, I want to punch him so bad. How dare he did this to Haeun. But that could be just a misunderstanding right, who knows-

"Hyun, when are we going to tell her?" We heard Minri's voice and Haeun stopped sobbing for a moment.

"Soon, Minri." Younhyun replied. I can't believe my ears.

"But I don't want to hurt Eun. I know how much she love you, she always talked about you to me, I just-"

"But the one I love is you Minri. Not her. Not anyone else."

Now, I'm sure that it's not misunderstanding anymore. I was about to approach them to give him a lesson but Eun's arms stop me.

"Let's go, Taehyung."

"B-but noona..."

"I'll bought you the coffee." She fake a smile and my heart broke even more.

Not only I can't show her that I love her but also I can't make her happy.
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Two weeks later, all of us were gathering in the hall like usual. We were practicing, and Haeun and Minri were there too.

I really adore Haeun. She's still able to join us, smile and laugh with us as if nothing happened. As if she didn't see anything about Younghyun and Minri.
As if she's alright.

Which is hurt me more.

Minri and Younghyun are getting closer day by day. Sometime I have to drag Haeun away because the scene is just too painful for her.

Lately, our friends who used to teasing Younghyun and her, now only talked about Minri and Younghyun. I know it hurts Eun's feelings too.

She can't hide it but
I can feel her pain.

"Guys, I have something to announce." Younghyun started during our break.

Suddenly my eyes automatically scan for Haeun. I don't know why whenever I notice Younghyun was talking, I think of her.

I must be drowning in my own thoughts too deep that I didn't notice she's gone.

"Me and Minri. We're dating now." Younghyun finally announced it and of course all of our friends congratulate them, including me.

Could it be she already know Younghyun is going to announce it tonight? That's why she left?

"Congratulation! Minri my bestfriend and Younghyun oppa!" Her voice catch my attention and there she is reach out her hand for them.

She's smiling, painfully.

But of course, no one notice it.

No one but me.

Younghyun and Minri were surprised, obviously but then Minri pull her for a hug.

I don't know what she tell her, but I wish at least she apologize.

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"Did she apologized?" I asked while handing her a cup of hot chocolate.

"Thank you, Tae. Who apologized? And for what?" She sipped the hot chocolate I made and instead of looking at the stars on the sky, I stare at the star beside me.

"Taehyung?" She called me, and I turned away immediately. She caught me staring.

"Minri. I saw she hugged you, did she apologized to you or something?"

"No. Why she should apologize? She done nothing wrong." She inhales deeply and stare at the sky.

Both of us were chillin' in my balcony. Well, actually I invited her to come here, since I know she must be shattered to pieces inside.

I remember how she talked about Younghyun to me, how he teased her, how he makes her happy, how he act like a fool when he actually want to bought her chocolates. I remember everything and I wish that I'm that lucky guy.

But no.

It's not me.

"She knows about your feelings. She's your bestfriend. You told her everything about him, and now she jus-"

"She loves him and he loves her. Enough, Taehyung." She cut me off as she finally look at me.

"B-but noona, how could she did that? How could he did that? He flirted with you and now he date your bestfriend!"

"Then what you want me to do? Slap him? Slap her? Hating on them? What will I get if I did that? Will he love me???? No, Taehyung. He will not. Ever."

But I will, Eun.

I'll Always do.

"I'm sorry, noona. I didn't mean to push you or anything. I just-... nevermind."

She let out another sigh before took another sip of my hot chocolate. I hope it taste good enough for her.

"I understand that you care about me. Thank you Taehyung." She reply again after calm down a bit.

I swear, she's controlling her emotion well. Sometime I wonder what if she hide everything behind her mask but actually she's dying inside.

I'm so worried.

"But noona, anyone can come and go in your life but I will stay. I will stay with you forever." I told her seriously but she just chuckles over my words.

"Don't makes promises that you can't keep Taehyung. One day you'll leave me too when you found somebody you truly love." She smile and look away. "She must be so lucky to have you."

And she's you.