7 reasons to hate love

Reason 5

You are driving me crazy.
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In my mind there is nothing else than you. 24/7 everything is spinning around you in my head.

Even my dreams are about you. I like sleeping, because it is another world. In my dream-world, you know that I have a crush on you. In my dreamworld, there is something between us. I think in my dreamworld, you like me too, beacuse I think that is what I'd wish the real world to be like.

When I close my eyes, I try to think of you and me in different situations. Sometimes I think about how we kiss, sometimes it is about how I tell you what I am feeling and sometimes it is about conversations in the past and what I would have done different, if I thought twice about it.

Holidays are boring when your friends don't want to meet and your just laying in the bed, addicted to Netflix. But some people, I think you can be counted in, are doing stuff in their holidays, and that's quite interesting.

You don't use your smartphone very often, so I wonder what you are doing the whole damn day. It must be something nice and interesting and I really would like to know, what you are doing. Often I try to imagine, what you're doing this moment, but I don't know and I don't want to ask you, because that would be annoying.

Lonely in my bed I can just think of you, what we did togetger, what we could have done or what we maybe will do some day. But when I think of all these 'kisses and love' things and imagine the most wonderful situations it makes me crazy, because I know that it will never be reality. None of this will ever happen. And how wonderful the feelings are, when I dream about kissing you, so much it hurts, when I realize, that these things won't ever happen.

It's sad, but that's how life is going.
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All I can think about is you, you and nothing else. And that's driving me crazy.