To Whom It May Concern

Day 1: The beginning

*buzz*
My phone went off, I checked my instagram to see my favorite band had posted. Half asleep I roll back over looking at the time. 11:52pm. "Why am I up?" I thought to myself only to fall back asleep. I hear the ringing of my alarm clock and get scared, my heart begins to pound and my eyes snap open. I sit up only to hear silence. Not realizing the time I walk to the bathroom and manage to put on some makeup. I finish and get dressed, with no time to spare, I head out the door. Im greeted with some yellow metal on wheels- the bus. I put in my ear buds and get on, not ready for the hell I'm going to. I arrive at school and see the crowd of people I'm forced to socialise with. I walk in and make my way to a group of people, some friends, some not. I sit at a lunch table and wait for the bell.
*ring*
We all head to our first class like our lives depended on it. I saw my ex and stopped next to her.
"Hey"
"Hey shi" I reply.
"Where you going?" As she hugs me
"284, you?"
"283, I'll walk with you." She smiles and I hesitate.
"O-ok."
We walk to the classrooms and she smiles at me, I force a smile so she doesn't think anything is wrong.
Why did she offer to walk me to homeroom, she doesn't care about me anymore.
Lost in thought the teacher calls my name and I manage to respond.
"H-here"
He continues with the list of names then tells us the normal stuff about the student handbook, like we haven't heard it every year. He mentions the paperwork we need signed and how the bell schedule will work for the next week. I don't listen, I'm lost in my mind.
*ring, ring, riiing*
Everyone stands and heads to the door, I'm the last one. I'm last for everything, no one picks me first, I never get first place, I always get noticed last. Last is what I've been since I can remember. I see Shiann with her boyfriend and feel my heart ache. I want to be the one she kisses, but Im no longer that person. I put my head down, and she spots me.
"What class are you going to?"
"French... You?"
"Gym" she made a face and I somehow smiled.
"Yeah, I'm gonna go I'll see you around. "
"OK, see ya."
I walk down the hall and look for the room. When I finally find it I see an empty seat across the room. I see a bunch of 9th graders and feel a little uncomfortable. I'm the only 10th grader.
"Yay me" I sarcastically think.