"This next song and last song of the night, is something I wrote just a few nights ago." She told the crowd, fixing her ear piece, then adjusting the mic closer to her lips. "I've been struggling with some things lately and there was a piece of me that wanted to just be let free. This song is kind of me doing that and trying to free the things that have been caged inside of my head. You guys are the first to hear it, so, I hope you like it. This song is called, Reason To Hate You."
Can you just lie to me
And ruin these memories
'Cause I've gotta forget somehow
So I'm begging you, burn us to the groundThey say time heals all wounds. Or that, with given time you'll start to let go. But right now, standing on this stage with her guitar in hand as her band just quietly chilled behind her, Camila couldn't help but feel exactly how she did 7 months ago. Feeling like her world was caving in on her. It's crazy, right? You could be so blinded by things that you don't realize just how bad they might actually be. You could be so happy but so oblivious to the things that are crumbling around you. 7 months and Camila had yet to feel like things were getting better. Because just 7 months ago, she swore she was at the top of the world with everything she ever wanted within the tips of her fingers. Yet now, she was on stage and felt like her heart was cracking day by day, night by night, second by second.
'Cause I know it's over but I don't know what to do
So help me get over, help me get over youAt first, she couldn't collect all the times things started going downhill. She couldn't recall any bad tension or resentment in her relationship. She thought things were fine, she thought they were even perfect, actually. But suddenly, they weren't. Out of nowhere, things were just bad and then...things were just over. It had all happened so fast that she couldn't catch a moment to take grip on things and try to put them back together. It all happened so fast that she didn't notice the love of her life walking out of the door. When she finally realized what was actually going on, it was too late. And the love of her life was long gone, back on a plane to Seattle for college.
And tell me you love somebody else or something
Or say you've been unfaithful to me
'Cause I need a reason to hate you
A reason to let go
A reason to move on
'Cause without one, I know I won't
So tell me you love somebody else or something
Or say you've been unfaithfulIt was just after her show in London. Camila had walked off the stage, the adrenaline rushing through her veins. Her and her band walked into her dressing room, she sat in her makeup chair. They were talking about the show they had just put on, excitement for the next one pumping through them. Her back up vocalist was talking about one of the songs they had performed when Camila's eyes lit up from looking over the other girls shoulder. She saw her standing there, at the threshold of the dressing room. Her girlfriend. Her first ever girlfriend, standing there in all her beautiful glory. But little did she know in that moment, that her world would be breaking down in just minutes once her band mates left the room.
Where do we go from here?
Do you just disappear?
'Cause I don't think I can be your friend
When it feels like the break isn't gonna mendAfter telling her band mates to leave the room to give them some time together, Camila threw her arms around her girlfriend in excitement, not expecting her to be there. "What are you doing here?" She asked once she pulled away. "I thought you had exams tomorrow? Did you take them early or - "
"We need to talk." Her girlfriend simply stated.
That's when Camila saw the look upon her girlfriends face. There was no excitement. There was so happiness. There was no love or admiration like there normally was. She just looked...tired. So drained. And Camila had only ever seen her girlfriend in this state once before, and that was when she was waiting on her acceptance letter to Seattle U. Which ended up getting lost in the mail and her girlfriend not sleeping for nearly two weeks. "Okay." Camila mumbled, taking her girlfriends hand and leading them both to sit on a loveseat. "What's going on - what's wrong?"
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Honey, Art
FanfictionAfter the ending of her first world tour, Camila has to figure out what's next in her life while working on her next album at the same time. The only problem is living door to door with her ex-girlfriend. *I do not own the songs used in this story* ...