Oh #Shoey 2~Youtuber Fanfic

Chapter 4 ~ I Believe You

(Joey's POV)

Down his arms, down his chest, down his stomach. All scared. Some look new and some look healed and old.

Shane's head hangs. He won't look at me. I take his arms in my hands.  "Shane I-"

"No.  I'm fine Joey.   It's okay.  I just..."

"Shane, this isn't okay.  Look at yourself!"

(Shane's POV)

I've exposed myself again.  Let people get to know me too much.  And now Joey is going to tell my mom and my doctors that I have hidden more than they previously found out.  Joey looks at me with horror, like I'm a monster.  I'm not even hurt by it because I know that I am one, I'm hurt becasue he had to find out how terrible I really am. I'm hurt because I know that he must be so hurt he didn't know what was going on with me.

"I know Joey.  But most of these are from before the hospital." I lie.  I've inflicted more cuts upon myself in the last four days than I have in my whole life.

"Really Shane?  Look at me and tell me that again."  I raise my eyes to his green ones.

"These are from before the hostpital." I say as I put up a wall behind my eyes to guard how I am feeling.

"I believe you." Joey says. 

(Joey's POV)

They way he looked at me made me believe him.  I know that no one could possibly hide that much pain so well. 

"Good." Shane says and grins a little. 

"You're doing a lot better aren't you?" I ask.

"Much better." Shane leans into my face and puts his forhead on mine so that there are literally two inches of space between us.

"I'm so glad I didn't loose you." he says.

"Same here."  I close my eyes and kiss him again.  He breaks it first to put his shirt and hoodie back on. 

"Aww man! You looked so sexy!" I say  to tease him (although he did look sexy).

"Haha self harm is soo in this season!" Shane says laughing, always taking a joke too far.

I get up to leave. "I'll see you tomorrow Shane.  Bye!"

"Bye Joe!"

(Shane's POV)

I watch Joey exit my apartment.  I should be happy that I have Joey back in my life, and really I am, but I also feel guilty for lying to Joey.  Perhaps now I can stop my cutting.  It would make me feel so much more free.

However, on the other side it is practically my way of dealing with the world.  And maybe I won't stop cutting to feel free, maybe I will stop cutting because my world isn't being infiltrated with things that make me want to cut.  Maybe this is a sign that my world is looking up again.

Just as I'm thinking about all of this deep shit, I hear a knock on my door. Joey probably left his phone here, I think. 

I twist the door handle and swing open the door,

It's Lisa.

*****

I cannot believe it.  How did she know where I live? Why is she here?  I just stand there with my mouth slightly ajar.

"Hello Shane." Lisa says.  She looks beautiful as ever wearing a floral top, blue skirt and combat boots.

"Hi Lisa."

"Can I come in?"