Emily walked in the door, with her loud ass laugh, which disrupted what me and Tyson had going on.
"What are you doing so close to her?"
"What do you mean, I'm just sitting next to a friend?" Tyson responds back to Emily.
Emily puts her books onto a different desk and drags Tysons desk back into the row it was originally in. "What was that for?" Tyson says and stands back up to move his desk back over. I just sat there looking like an idiot just watching it all happen. The bell rings and Emily lets out a huge and loud breath and grabs her books and heads to her seat. Tyson got his desk back over, looks at Emily and sticks his tongue out at her. I couldn't help but to laugh like an idiot.
Tyson and I were pretty close now. Closer than we have ever been. Mentally, and literally. I'm sitting in thought and the teacher yells "Settle down everyone, settle down!". It made me jump. I'm easily scared ok?! I noticed that Tyson saw me jump, and he did a little thing, like a little cute thing; he was like messing with his pencil and smiling down at it. I thought it was adorable!
Someone threw a piece of paper at the back of his neck, and it scarred him, and he ended up throwing his pencil. I. lost. my. shit. I laughed so hard, like there was actual tears, and he saw me laughing, and he got cracked up, too.
"Is it funny enough to tell to the whole class?" The teacher asked, and was gunning his eyes on me and Tyson.
"No, Sir"
"Sorry."
Mr. East turns around to the board, writes down his name, and writes down the bellringer.
"Homecoming is going to be soooo lit guys! I'm planning on going with Tyson, of course, and I'm probably going to talk him into buying me a lot of stuff for it, because I deserve it. I've been a good girlfriend" Says Emily, so loudly I'm surprised the other half of the room didn't hear it. Tyson turns around and looks at Emily.
"You have not been a 'good girlfriend'. You've humiliated me, in the hospital, and in front of the whole class-" He continues talking but I get distracted by his eyes, and his physical features as if it was my first time seeing him, and like my last. The tips of his ears were red, and his face was a little red too. I never noticed how cute his nose was. He has dimples?! He turns around too fast for me to realize what he was doing. We end up face to face with me staring at him. Ohhh myyyy gooooood I'm such a dumbass. We have been making eye contact for about 4 seconds now, I fake a cough and look away, and I can feel my face turn red. I put my hands on my face and let out a distressed groan. It was a lot louder than I planned for it to be. The whole class went silent.. If you could hear inside my head, it'd be screaming. I flip my hood up and put my head down.
"God, that totally wasn't embarrassing."
Tyson smiles and says "Oh, I bet" and lets out a chuckle.
About an hour goes past, leaving us with 30 minutes of free time left, Tyson goes back to Emily, because I was trying to sleep.
"So, Emily, what kind of dress are you wearing to homecoming?"
I turned my head the other way to look back there with my hood up almost covering my eyes.
"Well, I'm planning on wearing a light pink dress, one of those short ones, and it's gonna have sparkles and gems on the top-" That left me on a thought of: "what the hell am I going to wear?!" Tyson puts his arm around Emily.
"That sounds beautiful, just like you." Tyson says and follows it with a forehead kiss, and Emily puts her head on his shoulder.
I just felt my heart die. The only time I even think I have a chance, it all gets taken away.
Emily and Tyson are standing face to face with smiles on their faces and hugging and stuff, the couples stuff. It hurts. It really does hurt. One second he makes me feel like I'm the most important person to him, and then he turns around and it's like I'm nothing to him..
I feel a tear begin to go down my face, and I didn't even notice that I began to cry. It was one of those heavy tears, that fall hard. It splashed on my paper. I hurried up and wipe off my face, and make sure there was no trace of a tear.
..am I not good enough? They never act like this.. Thats probably because when I see them, they know I'm there. And by "they", I mean Tyson..
Oh my god, am I having an existential crisis??! What does that even mean?.. Doesn't that mean like I'm freaking out in anxiety and stuff??.. I'm not sure, but I think I'm having one.
