More and more tears begin to fall the more I think about the situation, and the vision of them together keeps replaying, and replaying in my head.
i want out..
i need out..
i need out.
I grabbed my books, took two steps towards the door, and ran out. I ran down the hallway with tears streaming down my face, quickly opened my locker, threw my books in there, and grabbed my book back which had the book I'm reading, my phone, and headphones in. I flipped my bookbag on one shoulder-
"Jayda! Where are you going?!" Tyson yells out. I look back wiping my tears away, and turned back down the hallway and ran out of the doors. I was running, in the chilly air. My tears felt as cold as the mood of my heart. My nose was cold, and it was fading to a pink shade. Everything seemed to being going so fast, but yet so slow. My mind was spinning.
I tripped over my foot, fell, and rolled down the hill. I stopped myself, and sat there, and cried. I grabbed my phone out of my bag and put on some music..
The color of the trees were so beautiful. The grass was dead, but was still beautiful with the rest of the sad, and dying trees. I layed back on the crunchy, and fragile dead grass with my hood up, and looked at the dark grey sky. Blocking out the world.
I began to walk down the hill all the way onto a road. It began to start to sprinkle rain. I look off my jacket, and shoved it in my bag. It slowly began to turn into a regular rainfall.
Walking alone, listening to music, and over thinking in the rain. Couldn't get any better.
I check the time, I've been out for an hour and a half.
What am I going to tell everyone? That I got jealous and broke into a mental break down? That I couldn't stand to see someone with someone that they love? I can't tell anyone. Not even Grey.
I walk my way back to the school, it's 11:37, third block. I take a deep breath, come into the school through the empty gym room doors. I walk into my class, luckily its free period. I slowly walk into the room, everyone talking, not noticing. I walk past Tyson to my desk, he takes a double take and walks over to me.
"Hey! Why did you leave?! Where did you-" I stop him from talking. "I'm sorry, I'm not telling anyone."
"But you can trust me! You know that!"
"Well, sorry, I'm not telling.. I can't.."
"Come here." He holds his arms out.
Wait, he wants me to hug him?! I stand up, hesitantly and give him a hug. My heart began to race, my face was turning red. He smells so good. He's so warm.. and tall.. I feel so safe. I didn't want to let go, but I had to. I had crazy butterflies, my heart was beating fast and I couldn't stop smiling.
One of Emily's friends came over. "Hi there, Break Easy!" Her and her friends laugh. My face goes red. "You don't even know what happened, so don't go talking shit before something happens."
"Oh, honey. Thats what you think."
My heart just dropped ten feet under ground.
"Oh! Your face went lighter than your future, now, would you like me to tell you what I know?"
One of her friends laugh and say "Hah, go ahead!". "Well," She begins, "I noticed right after Tyson showed his girlfriend love, and attention, thats when you ended up running away." I look at Tyson, and he's looking at me. "Awww! You like him don't you?" She asks. "N-no.." I respond hesitantly. Tyson seemed so stuck, mentally. I wonder what's going on in his head.. "Oh oh oh oh boy! Wait until I tell Emily! Hah!" she says sing-songly. She pulls out her phone. Suddenly I get so angry, and a massive fit of rage took over me. "Knock it the fuck off!" I rip her phone out of her hands, and smashed it on the ground. "You little bitch, if you broke that, you'll pay for it! Go outside and cry again you little cunt." She...didn't. I swing my arm at her jaw as hard as I can, I grabbed her hair and pulled her onto the ground. "Stay the fuck out of my life!" I yelled in her ear. The girl looks up with a huge red mark on her face, and ripped skin. "Wooooo!!!!" I hear someone yell from across the room. Suddenly everyone was cheering for me. But why though? The girl ran out the door with her friends and go to the bathroom. Kayla runs over to me, "Dude! That was awesome! You beat her ass UP!" She shakes me. "Yeah.. I guess it was pretty good." I swept off my shoulder trying to look tough, and Tyson laughs. "Well that was fun."
The day continued on like usual. This time I really craved Tyson to be with me. I missed him, even though I basically spent the whole day with him. I needed to feel his presence. I ached for him. I've never felt like this about anyone, over anything. The dismissal bell rang, I grabbed my books and went off to my locker so I could catch up with him. Usually, he's done really fast. I look back to see him and this time he was waiting for Emily. He never does that. I turn around and start walking again, and go out to my bus. The bus driver hands me a basket of candy and some roses and asks me about the accident, I tell her everything that happened, and headed to my seat, but sat in the seat next to Grey for more space for the basket. I look through the basket, and Grey gets on the bus. She takes a very large gasp, and says "You're gonna share right?!" I laugh and me and her share the treats. I put my headphones in and while we were driving, and I had flashbacks to this morning, and the fight. It seemed like the bus ride went by so fast. I get off the bus and walk by myself to my house.
