Unconditional

Of Generosity

After almost a year we got engaged, we were closer than before in terms of communications that made me to know many new sides of my fiancée, Muhammad. I rarely met him, maybe once in every two months, but we kept our whatsapp connected, to keep in touch.

I was thankful that Allah gave me the chances of knowing this guy, whom I've never imagine would be an important person in my life. We are so different as a person, but this differences started to complement each other in many unexpected means.

One of that I remembered was the way we managed our money. To be honest, I am a person who is in the middle of generous and stingy, and I'm writing this with a smile in my face because somehow I thought that this is weird. But it's true. I can give my money to the people in need in a large amount even when I don't know them, but when I know the person did not need much, I usually choose not to donate even a little. Because somehow I have my own struggle with my pocket money and savings in which I desperately need the money for myself.

During Hari Raya, people usually give some money to the kids which we called as 'duit raya' and basically you deserved it as long as you are still studying and did not earn your own money. I was a student at that time thus to give duit raya never crossed my mind. Even I got duit raya from my close relatives.

Later when I was chatting with my fiancée, we chatted a bit about this and from there I knew that he gave duit raya to his dozen of nieces and nephews, as well as his parents although actually he did'nt need to. My fiancée was still a student at that time and he had some allowances from his internships as well as his scholarship. But I knew, how much he was in need of money to be save for our marriage later.

I thought he was very thoughtful and kind for doing this. Having less did not restricted him from giving although to those who's not in need. It's just an act of showing love to the person we care about. Which kids would care if the envelope contained only 1 ringgit ? Once they got the envelope, they might just giggles and love the person who handed it.

The amount does not matter much, its always the generosity that counts.

:')