Unconditional

Tarbiyatul aulad.

Being in school for 2 months is quite painful especially in the beginning.

Feeling tired for shouting, tired of getting angry, unable to control the kids, and the most difficult thing is when i need to get along with the other teachers.

When you are different, some people may like you, but there will be people who dislike and feel uncomfortable to work with you. I have no choice but to keep calm and be nice to everyone despite how they treated me.

However as time goes by, i decided to keep the good things. To be in an education system for a while is a golden experiences. No matter how you hate to become a teacher, a murobbi, one day you may have to deal with your own children and need to have the skills to educate them.

Education was never enough to learn by theory, we need some practices. Differ from the adults in usrah previously, surely. Kids are different. They are totally a weird creatures which i barely understand at first.
But once you understand and know them by person, you dont need to shout much. After 1 months, I dont think 'tarik telinga' is the best solution anymore. Kids would still be kids, nothing changed. But after some period, things that make a difference is how we feel towards each other.

Previously i would be so annoyed whenever they can't do well, blurr all the way. But now i would laugh first for their silly questions. Nobody's was born stupid, but the process of learning would definitely make you look stupid.

Thus seeing them makes me feel that we should appreciate the opportunity to teach. I can't resist my temptation to scold them or being frustrated whenever they can't answer the questions. However I tried my best to balance between my emotions of anger and sabr. As long as they keep trying, it does not matter how much I need to commit.

It was a pleasure to teach when they demand rather than when they are being uninterested.

But one thing I should realize, they are young and dumb. For those who are extremely naughty or not showing any efforts, I can't leave them.

That's how the duty challenges your sabr.

2.11.17