I need to help u survive

chapter 3

Graces pov
After jj and I spoke we walked down stairs and into the kitchen to see the guys crowding around something I think about what it could be then it came to me... my phone I qickly pat myself down. Its not in any of my pockets. Oh god. I look at jj and fling myself across the kitchen to try and grab my phone but before I could grab it simon swipes it off the table "simon" I say walking over to him he puts his arm in the air I sigh and try to jump while everyone laughs. I stop jumping and look around to see everyone laughing then jj comes over and takes my phone out of simon hand and hands it back to me "thanks jide" "no problem ace" I roll my eyes "really" ace I'm guessing is a new nickname he nods and laughs.

Simon pov
We ended up playing fifa for the rest of the day jj keeps looking at grace. What's going on between them? Jj soon left the room then came back with his laptop he then gave it to grace I watched as the screen lit up her face and she typed something on the keypad I soon finished playing agents tobi I went to sit next to grace "hey si." She says not taking her eyes off the screen "hey grace" I sit on my phone then get my laptop from my room because I need to edit for my next youtube vidio. I was walking along the hallway when I heard jj on the phone again:
Jj:  man I really don't know what to do I'm worried about her

Jj:  I promised I wouldn't tell anyone dej

Jj: bro I told her I wouldn't

Jj: fine... she's ... Ill...

Jj: bro she's got an eating disorder!

Grace has an eating disorder?! Why didn't she tell any of us why didn't she tell... me?
I walk into the living room I emediatly locked my eyes on grace I can't look at her the same way she's now very fragile in my eyes and In jjs I expect. I sit next to her and edit she looks over my shoulder every so often then I looked over her's she's Watching... harry after harry after harry this girl is obsessed with harry.

Graces pov
I could feel simon looking at me binge watching harry truth is harry makes me fell so much better it makes me feel normal like I don't have a disorder like I'm the same person I was before I lived with jack and alex.

Simon pov
I text harry
S: grace is binge watching ur vidios
H: is she really!?
S: yep she's currently Watching  u get shot with a paint ball gun.
H: that hurt .
I look at harry he's staring at grace who's smiling widely which makes him laugh if only he knew what was going on. Jj Walked in and saw grace smiling which made him happy. Graces phone lit up next to her an instagram notification she picked up her phone and looked at the post she closed the laptop lid placed it on the floor and walked upstairs jide looked at me I shrugged he came and sat next to me and picked up the laptop to see Harrys vidio on the screen he looked really confused. It's been 20 minutes and grace still hasn't come down? "Haz go cheak on grace" I say "fine" he replys as he scrambles up off the floor. "Grace!" Harry yelps from his bedroom we all look at each other "harry u alright bud?" Jj yells up "uh... yeah.... fine I'll be down in a minute" He yells

Harrys pov
Simon asked me to go cheak on grace I scramble off the floor and run up the stairs I open the door to see grace sat on the floor lent against the bed her right fore arm facing the ceiling blood trickling down her arm from a fresh deep cut in her wrist her phone by her side "Grace!" I say she's looked shocked when she relised that I was stood in the door way she placed a finger to her mouth "harry u alright bud?" Jj yells up "uh... yeah.... fine I'll be down in a minute" i yell. I shut the door and walk toward grace "why?" I ask as I sit next to her She doesn't say anything I grab a warm cloth and clear the cut "why would u do this grace?" She don't say anything she just stared at me cleaning her arm "h..harry?" She stutters "yes gracie" "why u doing this harry?" She says "because gracie I care about u" I say I look into her eyes there full of pain there drained "why harry I'm nothing I'm just a teenager who can't handle the world" she looks down at her arm she clenched her fist and fresh blood poured out of her wound I cleared up the blood I unravelled her hand and held it "grace look at me" she looked up right into my eyes "grace why do u throw ur self down like that making things up like that let me tell u 2 things 1. Ur not a teenager on ur own u have us. 2. U don't have to handle the world alone u have me and jack and alex and-" she cut me off "That's the thing harry I don't!" "What do u mean u don't?" "I only have chloe, u, lily and jide that's  all and... no one understands how this feels how... my head works how... I feel every day walking up and feeling less and less like I'm needed in the world less and less that no one would notice. no one would care if I went. No one feels like I feel every day or every week of every month of every year..... no one understands!" She says I can tell that she's bottled that up "grace ur not all alone I'm hear for u I'm hear all the time every time u need me" I say as she crys into my chest  "thanks harry but don't tell anyone about this please" she asks "I won't" I kiss her head and sit with her until she stops "here put this on" I say as as hand her a light blue hoodie she takes it and slips it on she hugs me before we open the door and she don't let go of my waist till were in the living room "grace I love u" I whisper as we both pick up a Xbox controller she turns her head and kisses me on the cheak the walks off. What dose that mean?

Graces pov
Harry just  told me he loved me I love him to but I'll tell him when I love feel like it instead I kiss his cheak and walk away and we play fifa