Date: 10/7/2017
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When I talk to my friends, I still feel lonely and still want to die.
It feels worse and confusing when I'm with my family or my partner.
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I know I shouldn't feel like this.
But when I know nothing about myself, everything hurts and feels worse than it should.
Everyone asks me "What do you want?" and "What are you feeling?".
"I don't know" is all I can answer.
Sometimes I'm okay with that answer.
The problem is that no one else is. Even I'm not sometimes.
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Every time that I say "I don't know" to a "What do you want?", I feel like I'm not the only mind in one body.
If I had a doubtful side to me, then this would make sense. But this happens everyday, all day.
My life is full of contradictions that don't make sense.
Does this mean I just don't belong? Then what do I do next?
I'm forced to ask myself these questions every time I feel like the 3rd wheel.
Sadly, the answers always eludes me.
So the cycle continues til I realize I'm just a wheel stuck on its side and can't go anywhere.
How do I get rolling? Do I ever get anywhere just to fall down again?
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Inspiration: ...
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- SilverStarDraco
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