Tmnt and Fnaf Songfics

Nobody knows it but me ( Freddy x Melissa )

Freddy's P.O.V 

I looked out the window where Melissa's car used to be and sighed to myself. I acted like i was happy she left since all we did was argue, but i didn't really thing the wall would close in and the truth would finally hit me.  I missed her so much and i just now realized how much i needed her. I laid in the bed i used to share with her and it still had a little curve in the mattress.  i groaned and headed to the couch where we used to sit and watch horror movies i could still feel her cling to me when she got scared. I was dying inside with out her i guess i really needed her she was my life my purpose and now that is gone. I have no purpose and i felt like i had no life i felt like i was walking Zombie 

I pretend that I'm glad you went away
These four walls close in more every day
And I'm dyin' inside
And nobody knows it but me  

i felt like a clown around my friends and brothers because i put on an act when deep inside i was heartbroken. No one knew that mainly because i was really good at keeping my emotions hidden and bottled up. I never really expressed my emotions unless i wanted to and my brothers understood that because they never pressured me about it they waited until i wanted to open up i was really grateful for that. 

Like a clown I put on a show
The pain is real, even if nobody knows
And I'm cryin' inside
And nobody knows it but me  

I growled as i punched the wall " why didn't i  tell her how i felt ? Why did i let her leave? " I screamed as a single tear rolled down my cheek " gosh Freddy your such an idiot " i said to myself tears streaming down my cheeks " she was the only girl that loved you for you, that understood you,that didn't judge you, and you had to go and blow it,you had to ruin your one chance of happiness and you had to let your angel walk away from you leaving you heartbroken" I said sobbing quietly leaning my head against the wall. my world was falling apart without Melissa. I was nothing without Melissa and My  life had no purpose without Melissa. 

Why didn't I say
The things I needed to say
How could I let my angel get away
now my world is just a tumblin' down
I can see it so clearly
But you're nowhere around  

Night time fell and i slowly got up and headed to the bed room and laid down. I slowly touched the side Melissa used to sleep and began to cry again. I felt lonely with out her, I felt like i was nothing without her. I don't know what to do with out her she was my everything. If only i had told her that when we were together.

The nights are lonely, the days are so sad and
I just keep thinkin' about the love that we had
And I'm missing you
And nobody knows it but me  
Hmm...no one knows

The next day

I woke up with a tear stained face ' I must've cried myself to sleep again ' i thought getting up and went to fix me something to eat. I sat at the dining room table with a bowl of cereal and ate in the silence something i was used to by now. After i was done eating i went back to the couch and turned on the T.V and turned on one of my favorite movies in attempts to cheer myself up but it didn't help. 

How blue can I get, you could ask my heart
Just like a jigsaw puzzle it's been torn all apart
A million words couldn't say
Just how I feel
A million years from now you know
I'll be lovin' you still  

I looked at my wrist with a small smile as i rubbed each cut i had. A week after my and Melissa's break-up. I haven't been cutting my self since Goldie had caught me and i couldn't stand the disappointment on my older brothers face i could barely stand seeing him tears. I knew i was hurting him in away since he always tended to blame himself if me or Shadow were to get hurt. I turned my focus to the T.V and sighed turning it off and laying on the couch instantly falling asleep. 

The nights are lonely, the days are so sad and
I just keep thinkin' about the love that we had
And I'm missing you
And nobody knows it but me  
( nobody )

When i woke up i looked around my living room and got up. I went to the kitchen and began to make me something for supper. I sat back on the couch and turned on the T.V and began to eat my supper while watching my favorite T.V show. I smiled a little for the first time in while. Once i was finished i put my dish in the Sink and then i headed to Bed. The second my head hit that pillow a tear rolled down my cheeks. I rolled over and drifted off to sleep thinking of Melissa in the process which only made me cry more. 

Nights are lonely, the days are so sad
(No one knows)
And I just keep thinkin' about the love that we had
(Nobody knows)
And I'm missing you and nobody knows it but me

The next morning i got up and headed to the bathroom for a shower since i hadn't taken one in two days. I let the warm water run over me while i stayed deep in my thoughts. I washed my hair and bathed then i got out and got dressed in a brown t-shirt and blue jeans with black converse. I walked out of the bathroom then made my way to the kitchen to get me a bowl of cereal. After i ate i headed to the bed room and took a nap. 

The nights are lonely, the days are so sad and
And I just keep thinkin' about the love that we had
And I'm missing you and nobody knows it but me  

After i woke up i packed a little bag and grabbed my car keys. I got in my car then i began to drive to my brothers house ' maybe they won't mind if i stay with them for a few days ' i said to my self as i drove down the road thinking of Melissa. When i got to my brother's house i was instantly greeted by Kialy " hey Fred what's up " she said cheerfully causing Goldie to come to the door " Hey can i stay here for a few nights " i asked as Kialy nodded pulling me in " sure there's a spare bed room at the end of the hall beside Shadow's room so you get settled " Goldie said hugging me " also bro don't be afraid to ask for anything Kay oh and also supper will be ready soon " he continued as i nodded and headed to the spare bed room and waited for supper to get ready while i watched my favorite T.V show forgetting about Melissa for a split second and it was great to have such a kind older brother and sister-in-law who care for me and i was grateful to have a younger brother and sister-in-law who love me just the same. I smiled as i turned the T.V off and took another cat nap with a smile on my face.