I Just Want To Survive | Michael X Reader |

4. I feel what you feel

Michael's p.o.v:
Turns out that I wasn't alone y/n here, was also feeling the same. And just as the wall that I built, the wall that I spent so many years building, the wall that no one could ever cross. Only Jeremy was able to take down the wall but that was only one time and I've known him for so long. And y/n, I just met her. She was kind and I guess she didn't really like me from what I've seen, calling me "weed dude". However, she was still here with me and I smelled like weed more than before since I've been smoking the entire day trying to get him out of my head. Finally, I made up my mind I didn't like Jeremy as I did before, he was always like a brother to me and it should always stay that way. Even though I always get that feeling that my heart is being slowly stabbed when I hear him talk about Christine. He's happy with her and I knew that one day it would come to this. I knew from the beginning that he didn't feel the same way as I did towards him. And now I knew that y/n had feeling towards him as well. It was time to build that wall again and show her that I supported her, but if she liked him and if they did get together that would be the end of me. I knew I should've killed myself when I had the chance. It was time to pretend again, I grabbed my mask and turned around.

Y/n p.o.v:
Michael turned around out of nowhere and I quickly let go of his hoodie. He looked directly at me his eyes still red and puffy from what was either his crying or the weed that he was smoking. He took both my hands something that I was not used to. "I think I'm in love you." He said and smiled a little, some tears falling down. What did I do to deserve this? He looked so helpless and I felt as if I was now responsible for anything that he would later try to do. What if he wanted to kill himself?!? I would be responsible for all that would happen! I would be taken out of my comfort zone and into the public, but I was already out of my comfort zone. I was out of it for a while without me knowing. Ever since I began to talk with Michael and, him...

Michael's p.o.v:
She looked completely shocked from what I said. It looked like she was planning something. I don't think she knew but I could see everything from her [insert color] eyes. They were normal just like everyone else's but I knew eyes like those when I saw one, she was scared. I could relate to her so much.

Y/n's p.o.v:
I'm going to regret this. "You Do?" He looked down at me smiled and nodded as he began to wipe his tears off. "But, you know I like Jeremy. I just told you." I said trying my best not to let my feelings spill like Michael's did. "STOP TALKING ABOUT JEREMY! PLEASE, JUST STOP OKAY!?" This guy shouted at me for trying to comfort him. I felt attacked, whenever people yell at me it makes me want to cry. And that's exactly what I did. I spilled all my feelings there and didn't move. I wanted him to see what he had done. If he really loved me then he wouldn't accept me crying. He'd comfort me. Rage and sadness took over, I felt angry at Michael and upset that I could never do anything right. I was always going to ruin someone's day.

Michael's p.o.v:
I was angry when y/n mentioned Jeremy I was trying to forget about him and she had to bring it up. Why would she do that, without thinking I had screamed at her, she looked so scared when I screamed at her. It must have been the weed because if I hadn't smoked it then I wouldn't have yelled at her and she wouldn't be crying. Her nose began to run and I didn't feel disgusted I knew too well that you couldn't control it when you cried. I took of my sweater feeling to reavealed and wrapped it around her. She was startled and she looked at me through her red puffed up eyes, I guess she didn't expect me to do that.

Y/n' s p.o.v:
He actually stayed to cheer me up in a way. He could've ran away and went somewhere else instead of dealing with me the person that was crying a river. Who's nose was running and disgusting. I guess you could say this was the beginning of something new.

Lmao just wanted to say that Im doing a paper on dear evan hansen ikik u all are super jelly
(Also I wrote this a long while ago and don't want to delete it so)
Shout out to @NightCore_Melody for the spam that i got during my lunch really appreciate it XD