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17: all i need

sophia zianna beatrice
april 18, 2017

"hi, love! happy 5th to us!!" i greeted him over the phone. i heard him laughed, "happy 5th, love." his voice just make me smile instantly. "how's life without me?" i asked as i slouched on our couch, eating chips. "ofcourse, boring." he answered. "weh? you got angelina naman e." i replied. he has a crush on angelina cruz, but it's fine to me. ako naman ang mahal.

"angelina nanaman." i heard him scowled on the other line, "what? diba you have a crush on her?" i asked, a hint of 'duh' in my tone. "yan ka nanaman, you're jealous again." he answered and chuckled. "me? jealous? no way, benjamin." i scoffed and rolled my eyes. "selosa," he teased. "no, i'm not."

"yes you are."

"okay fine." i gave up and he laughed loudly. "how many times will i tell you i don't like her anymore?" he told me. "halata naman e, you still like her." i said. "not anymore,"

"edi wow."

he laughed once again, i heard solana on the other line. "kuya! let's play, please?" aw, ang cute ni solana! "okay solana. i'll cal you later, okay? i love you." he said, "okay, don't make solana cry ha. i love you too." i replied and ended the call. after i finished watching two episodes of the flash, i turned off our television and went up to my room.

after my birthday, they already went home. and after my birthday, i went for a check up with my four kuya. the doctor said that my heart has a hole, kasing laki daw ng takip ng bote ng coke. i didn't told benj so he won't be worried at me. i don't want to tell him.

"soph?" my brother called out as he opened the door, "yea?" i looked at him. "ngayon na malalaman ang result." oh, i almost forgot. i nodded and get ready, my mom still don't know what happened to me. we don't want to tell her yet.

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"good morning, mr. and ms. fuentabella." dra. magsino smiled at us and we did the same. we sat at the chairs, "so, what's the result?" i asked and she answered us. i can feel my heart aching, my hands shaking, my body almost stopped.

"you have an atrial septal defect." para akong nabingi, i thought it was already cured? i looked at my brother, he gave me a small smile. "is there any cure, dra?" he asked. "yes, there is. but sadly, we don't have any cure here. ang alam ko sa u.s meron." she answered. "it should be cured, immediately."

we talked for a few more minutes, and we went out. i hugged my brother and cried, "you'll be fine." he rubbed my back. "edi we'll leave?" i asked, looking at him. "yes." he answered in a low voice. i felt my heart shattered into pieces, you gotta be kidding me. "we need to tell mum," he added and i nod.

our drive going back was so quiet, i didn't even realized we're already here. i hopped out quietly and went up to my room, i looked at the frame at my sidetable. it was a picture of me and Benj when he had a school dance, pwede outsiders so he asked me out. beside it was our photo with the boys; meray, oliver, hans, andres, miguel, and sandro. i'l miss them.

i went back to my senses when i heard my door opened, it revealed mum and kuya. they sat at rhe edge of my bed, "are you okay, anak?" my mum held my hand, i gave her a smile and nodded. "i don't want to leave." i told her, and i felt tears escaped from my eyes; i can't stop crying.

"we need to, we'll come back." she gave me an encouraging smile and my brother huggged me. "this is for your own good, soph." he told me while i cried on his shoulders.

all i need is him.

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2:49 p.m.

"can we go to the pangilinans?" i asked, kuya sean went towards me. "right now?" he said and i nodded continuously. "okay, get yourself dressed. ayaw mo naman sigurong makita ka ni benj ng ganyan?" he told me and i looked at my outfit. what's wrong with oversied shirt and booty shorts?