1:14am
sunshine: JINYOUNG THEY FOUND ME A HEART !! I WONT BE ABLE TO TALK TO YOU AT ALL TOMORROW SO IM TELLING YOU NOW !! LOVE YOU 😍
8:24am
i woke up to the bright light flooding in through my window. my first instinct is to check my phone. i turn it on to see a notif from the contact "sunshine" aka youngjae.
i smiled to myself as i excitedly got out of bed. i was preparing to go the hospital and wait for youngjae to get out of surgery. maybe even after he got out surgery i would tell him that i kinda sorta maybe fell in love with him.
i hope he feels the same way. and with his heart surgery we can be together without worrying when the other is going to die. it sounds sad but it won't be sad anymore !! our lives are changing !!
"hey mom," i walk down the stairs,"can i borrow the car keys?" i ask.
"why?" she looks at me suspiciously. probably because i almost never ask her for the car.
"youngjae is in surgery and i want to wait for him at the hospital like he did for me." she smiles at me and tosses the keys my way.
"at least pick up something to eat!" she yells towards me as i walk out the door. the hospital isn't too far away. i click my seatbelt and go through the mcdonald's drive-through for breakfast. it would have to suffice.
next stop; the hospital.
as i arrive the office lady recognizes me but questions why i'm here. i tell her that i'm here for a friend.
"who?" when i tell her it's choi youngjae her face slumps a bit but brightens back up. very strange considering youngjae is being given an extension at life. shouldn't she be happy?
either way i cast her strange actions aside and sit down. i brought my phone charger because i knew i'd get bored and the surgeries take about 8 hours. the great thing about the surgery waiting rooms is they have big tables with outlets all over the place so it's really convenient.
8:15pm
i exit netflix and look at the time. 8:15?!?!?!?! it's been twelve hours that i know of and youngjae isn't out of surgery yet. i'm very worried. i walk up to the desk again.
"uhm hi, can you tell me when choi youngjae is scheduled to be out of surgery?" i ask confused. she looks to her computer, types some things, i assume youngjae's name, and looks back to me.
"youngjae is having some difficulties with his heart surgery. they're trying their best to fix everything and continue the surgery smoothly." it hit my heart. hard. was he okay?
"what kind of difficulties?"
"the new heart tissue is dying inside of his body from being out of the donors body for too long."
i thank her and walk out the double doors to the bathroom. tears were running down my eyes. what if he doesn't survive?? but i can't think this way. youngjae will survive jinyoung. he'll pull through.
i collect myself, grab some food from the cafeteria, and head back to the surgery waiting room. i sat back down and prepared myself for a few more hours.
1 season of fuller house later the doctor walks out. youngjae's parents had just gone to the bathroom so i approach him.
"hello are you a relative of youngjae's?"
"uhm no. i'm just here to see how he is."
"i'm sorry i can only talk to members of his family."
"i'm his boyfriend" i blurted out. i don't know why but i did. maybe it was because i wished to be youngjae's so badly.
"in that case you deserve to know. sadly we could not repair the dying tissue in youngjae's new heart. i'm sorry but youngjae didn't make it."
i felt my heart break in two and suddenly everything was black again just like in my very own surgery.
welcome to the end of this book lol
