When I'm sad, I think about grade 7 and below.
I'd dance on the benches with my friends as we'd grow.
We'd sing until our hearts joined in song, I was so happy to be there.
We'd stay out late riding our bikes down the street.
Watching silent sunsets, calm beautiful and sweet.
I used to sing around my house so loud I'd collapse into giggles.
Now I sing softly.
Now I stay home.
Now I don't smile.
Now...
I'm alone.
It breaks my heart to think about the stories I have to tell.
I don't appreciate life as much.
With genuine experiences, it's hard not to dwell.
I use them when wounded, as a crutch.
I have to push myself to have that again.
Love that conquers my inner sadness.
"I don't know where I go from here, I don't have anyth-"
You have everything.
Just listen.
Now I sing loudly.
Now I leave home.
My cheeks hurt from smiling.
And now...
I've grown to think clearly, walk proudly and live happily.
I'm always the one looking out for everyone, leaving myself behind.
I was the bubbly, smiley person who included those who sat alone at recess.
Even my bad days are good days, as long as I can make someone smile.
Push to be your best self.
Nothing stands in the way of your happiness, but you.
Push the opinions of others aside and take control of your life.
I know that's easier said than done.
As soon as I get back to bike rides and sunsets it'll all be worth it.
Sometimes we don't know what to push for and it leaves us wanting to give up.
Sometimes you wanna hit a wall,
or a drink,
or a joint.
Sometimes the bad times outweigh the good.
I promise you'll have good times without hitting anything.
I've had a lifetime of good and bad.
That doesn't define me.
It doesn't define you either.
You're worth so much more than you give yourself credit for.
It's time you changed your life and your perspective around.
I'm done being lost, I'm ready to be found.
