Ludic - A Hoseok Fanfiction

You Are My Sunshine

[(A/n) : the writing for this chapter is supposed to sound very childish and poorly written, because hobi is writing down his memories a child. AND ALSO, VERY IMPORTANT!!! This is NOT AT ALL how I feel towards Hobi. This is only how he is feeling in the story. I really love Hobi, he's what we need in our lives]  

"What are you doing?! Stand up straight, don't slouch! No one's ever going to want to be your friend if you look like that! Now, be a good boy and look nice so you can make some friends Hoseok"

Gulp.

This is how it's always been, I had to be a good boy and look nice so I could make friends for Mommy. Even if I was a good boy, I still could never have any extra dessert or candy. If I was a good boy that day, and made some friends with rich parents, I'd get to sleep with my Doggie! But if I looked ugly and was a bad boy...Doggie would get beaten. Doggie would have to sleep outside in the rain. Doggie would get kicked or punched. And Doggie knew it was my fault. I see Doggie with reddish-brown, flaky spots a lot...

...So me and Doggie took a trip somewhere faaaaaaaar away, like all the other kids told me to! Me and Doggie went into the big scary trees near the park, I thought It'd be fun! Me and Doggie walked forever until we got there! But...it was dark and scary. Doggie looked scared and I felt bad...But when I tried to take him home, I heard Mommy's voice yelling at me and got scared so I picked up Doggie and ran into the big scary trees. I ran and ran and ran and ran until I was lost and couldn't hear Mommy. Doggie looked scared, so I set her down and she was wagging her tail snuggling up near me. Everything seemed okay for a while but then a scary growl made Doggie scared. I remember seeing Doggie get attacked by a big brown animal, and I screamed because Doggie was my friend! I don't want to loose Doggie to Mommy like I did Daddy! But Doggie wasn't whimpering anymore, and her fur was just like it was when she had red flaky spots, except it was wet. I called for Doggie, I loved her. We had slept outside and inside together. We had been beaten and kicked and starved together! But she looked sad when I said her name. Did Doggie hate me too? No, I was sure Doggie loved me...but she looked sad for me. I think she knew what Mommy was going to do to me if she found me. So as I cried my eyes out for the 1,000th time, I made a spot for her to rest, and gave her my jacket so she could be warm. "I love you Doggie" I said to my friend "And I'm sorry that you had a bad life because of me" after that, I could have sworn I heard a girl voice say that "You were my sunshine, my only ray of light"! Before I could think about anything, I ran out of the woods to the one place I could be safe. The restaurant where the one friend my Mommy wouldn't support always was. Her name was (Y/n), and I was her oppa. She was poor, but always looked real pretty and I really wanted to be like her. I wish I always looked pretty like her....