I sat there frozen, unable to breath let alone move my ligaments. My life has been a lie. My parents, my siblings, and myself, all just a fake identity.
A thought floated through my mind. Why? How did they keep this a secret from me? Disgust filled me just looking at them. They told me who they were, 14 YEARS! After I was born. They just came out about it, not even discretely.
Earlier this morning, I was getting ready. You see my 'Parents' said we were going to go out for the day to the amusement park. We spent the day there and by the end I was worn out and my walking kept slowing down to a near stopped pace. We were heading home when they told me.
"Callum" my father released a quiet sigh as he says my name. "Your mother and I have something to tell you". I just looked at him- waiting patiently for him to continue. "you see you arent...yo...you are not our child!" he stuttered and shouted as if he was forcing it out, hiding his pain behind his words. Confusion filled me and fuelled me to ask "Wha...what do you mean?".
This time my mother butted in before my father to answer. "You see sweetie we found you on our door step 14 years ago. We took you to the services and attempted to find your biological parents but we couldnt. So, we decided to adopt you into our family and we both swore to raise you as our own". To say I was shocked would be an understatement. One question lingered my mind. One which I had to know the answer to. "Do...does my brother know?" she looked reluctant "Did he?" "Yes" she whispered almost inaudible. I was silent, to stunned by the confession to be unaware that we had arrived home.
This is where I am now. As anger filled me I opened the door and ran into the small forest that we lived next to. From what I know there isnt any predatory animals in there. I continued running until it was Pitch black so I guess about half an hour to 45 minutes. I was worn out from the running and the day I had before. I could no longer hear the shouts and cries for me to come back from my so called 'parents'.
I found a tree with a hole near its bottom which was big enough to allow me shelter from the night and the wind that bites at my skin. I huddled near the back of the inside of the hole and the thoughts of what happened today filled me. After a while my mind and heart were having an internal battle with each other making both my head and heart hurt.
My mind screamed 'They lied to you, they didnt trust you, they didnt want to tell you, they were CONTOLLING you!' where as my heart was whispering its reply 'they could have done it to protect you, they didnt tell you because they thought they would lose you and that you would fade away into the background nearly never talking'.
I decided to interrupt the constant arguments going through my mind "what about Adam, why didnt he tell me?" My heart answered back loudly this time seeming more confident 'he didnt tell you because he didnt want to lose his only brother' I waited for my mind to fight back but it was silent. I started thinking about forgiving as guilt started to fill me "Great my own heart is giving me a guilt trip" I say aloud to myself. I then heard words echo around me "family is not who brought you to this world, no its not. It is who you choose for your family to be and the ones that raised you".
I looked around frantically for the soft gentle voice but I couldnt find anything. Those words reverberated in my mind and I finally snapped. I ran home much faster than I have before. After twenty minutes of running I located the edge of the forest and ran out and to the door. I banged on if roughly until it opened and there they stood. I ran in and hugged them whispering "Im sorry" under my breath.
A chill ran down my spine suddenly enticing me to turn around. I slowly turn my head responding to the feeling and stared out of the window to see a pale white face staring in and smiling at me before slowly fading into the darkness of the night.
