Poems

wine I guess

Maybe i'm not meant to be happy

Lying just to distract me

Maybe it's just all a game

A strange call to fame

Keeping you happy

Even if life is crappy

Maybe i'm just strange

Put my thoughts in a shooting range

Paint the walls with my rage

See how well they age

Red like wine

Take you out we can dine

Derelict madness and a bullet to eat

Walking hand in hand down a lifeless, lightless street

There's nothing after

I love her

I love her

I love her

My deranged rambling

Leaving me scrambling

I keep you on refrain

God i hope it's louder than the pain

All i want to do

All i need to do

All i scream to do

All i plead to do

All i really want is to die

Everyones leaving so why cry

Everyone is bound to die

Why shelter yourself in a lie

The end is always there

If i stare long enough my screaming bleeds into despair

I don't even bother speaking

My throats red raw and i'm having trouble breathing

Beat me

Save me

Someone just see

I don't think you can help me

So far gone

A facade of happiness is what i have on

I don't care

Life isnt fair

So why complain

If i'm just a pessimist all the same

10 different personalities

All residing inside of me

They're all just different frames of my disparity

They're all me

Me

Who i pretend to be

Am i just self centered?

A thought that just occurred

I think too much

I use my lies as a crutch

Maybe i am self centered

Cause i fuckin hate myself and that makes people concerned

But i'm fine

So let's dine

Fine wine

Lying we can spend our time

Sip our wine

Pretend the screaming is far behind

A glass for you a cup for me

Eyes blue as the sea

yours are oh so entrancing to me

Maybe if i'm lost long enough

The pain wont be rough

But why complain

I am full of disdain

Such a pessimist

What else should i be?

You all just get worse so why not be lost in my negative sea

It's better than being blind

Pretending i don't mind

It's just getting worse

And by pretending it's great you're speeding in your own hearse driving yourself verse by verse

Sometimes i cry

Sometimes i lie

When i scream

I dream

When i scream

I dream

But fine

If pretending is what's on all of your minds

We can dine

Partake in the wine

And talk away our time

Ignore the screaming

Pretend we're dreaming

Ignore your screaming

Were all just stuck dreaming

Maybe i am strange

Unlike you i won't refuse to change

Maybe if i do

I can start pretending just like you

We can all see what we like

Watch our happiness spike

Unlike you i'll refuse to change

Aren't i strange?

Walk me down range

So strange

Sit me down and forget the words we exchange

I'm a stranger

Ill sit there and accept that danger

Paint the walls with me

Maybe then you'll see

Wine and dine

Waste your time

Fuck the divine

We aren't fine

Maybe i'm strange

Nothing will ever change