We used to be happy back then
We played and smiled together
I missed the memories of ours - US
You and me are not same anymore
I feel dejected
I lost someone that was important to me
I don't know who you are anymore
I lost my best friend
I lost my s...
I saw him through the door. He laid down on the bed. Probably sleeping. I saw some of their friends was sat around him and there was a beautiful girl. Peach. She said something to him. I couldn't hear it from where I stand. I hid behind the door. I didn't want anyone notice me there.
I hid myself behind the wall when Peach and some friends get out from patient room. I waited for 10 minutes before I went out from my hiding. I opened the door. Walked slowly near the bed. I could hear he slept soundless. He look at ease. He look so calm. I felt at ease. He is okay. Nothing bad happened to him. I felt relieved.
"I'm sorry Copper" that was the only words I could say to him. I could not find any words to express my guilty of him. I felt bad for him. Even though he did something bad to me, I didn't like to see him look so powerless like this one. It hurts me a lot. Why I felt this pain?
I wanted to go out from this room but there was a woman greeted me. She look beautiful in her age. She smiled at me and asked me some questions.
"Are you a friend of my son?" I nodded. I lied, I know but I couldn't tell her I'm not her son friend. If I'm not her son friend, why would I be here? It would be weird. She smiled again.
"It is good to know my son have a nice friend who really cares about him" No, I'm not. I'm not a good person. Because I am the one who made her son in this state. I'm not his friend and I don't care about him. Why would I care about him? I couldn't say anything to her. I just smiled.
"Come on, son. Sit here with me!" I sat beside her in silent. She asked me a lot of questions. I answered most of them with a big lie. I told her how nice her son at school. I told her how Copper has lot of friends and everyone adored him. I felt sick of myself. Why would I lie to her about her son? Maybe because I could see how she loved her son in her eyes. I couldn't say anything bad about her son. It could hurt her. And I didn't want to hurt her. She look like my mom. I would do everything to make my mom happy, even to lie though.
She made a gap with me when she got a call from someone. She asked me to stay for a while to take care of her son. I wanted to refuse it but she pleaded me. I couldn't reject it. I nodded as a yes. I hated myself for being kind to her. She bid me a goodbye and gave me a big hug. I felt warm inside my heart.
I sat beside Copper who still laid down on the bed. I watched his face closely. He was my best friend before everything messed up and ruined our friendship. I missed the old him. I missed how close we used to be. I missed him. So much.
"I missed you" that was the last thing that I remembered. After that, I didn't remember anything. All I knew, I felt in sleep. And when I woke up, I saw myself got covered with blanket. It felt so warm. I looked around and I couldn't find Copper anywhere. I asked the information. They said he was discharged. So, he was okay. Now, I could feel relieved.
*****
I laid back on my bed. I looked at the ceiling blankly. Shit. I shouldn't be like this. I should do something productive. I got up from my bed. Looking for my rubic cube in the drawer. I looked at something familiar. A paper of photo. I looked at two boys who was smiling in that photo. They seemed so close to each other. They look so innocent. Smile like a child. Yes, they are Copper and I in our junior high school. I smiled at that photo of us. I really missed it. I really missed us. I really missed him. The old him. Copper.
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*****
The atmosphere in this hall became awkward. It became gloomy. After that incident, Peach, Copper and I became in awkward state. Peach and Copper have cold war. Peach and I try to avoid each other. Maybe because we felt guilty to each other. Maybe Peach felt guilty because she thought she was the reason why Copper humiliated me like that. While I felt guilty because I caused her cold war with Copper.
"I hate this tension. I feel like I'm in the gloomy world. Could someone turn on the light? Why this seems so dark over here?" that was my best friend sarcasm. Please, someone tell me why I be friend with this cute demon biside me? I stared at him.
"What?" he asked me. Okay, I need to puch him in the face.
Why he is here with me but not helping at all? At least, please try to cheer me up, Sun!
"Just act as usual, Oh. Just be you as usual. Just like the old Oh. Fool and stupid!" Okay fix, someone give me a gun so I could shoot him right fucking now. How could he put a salt on my wound. I felt hurt.
"If you want every thing back to normal, one of you should talk first. Apologize or talk something. If you keep ignoring each other, this won't be end! Oh God, why you guys make me have headache?"
"Will they forgive me?"
"If you not try how could you know? Just do it right fucking now!" I got up as he commanded me. Yes, Sun was right. I should fix this matter. At least with Peach. That was the simple one. With Copper? I will think it later.
I found Peach talked with her best friend. I smiled at them awkwardly. Her friend bid us goodbye to let us have some times together.
"Oh/Peach" we said at the same time. Peach told me to speak first but I refused and told her to talk first. She insisted.
"About what happened with Copper, I apologize. And hope you and him will be okay" I said.
"You are a good person, Oh" she said, "Between me and Copper, I don't know if we can continue our relationship"
"No, it is not because of you. I don't know. Maybe it is because of me. I feel tired because of this and that" she continued when she looked at my shock face, "I have tried but I'm not strong enough. Maybe it is time for me to let him go before I get hurt more than this" she added and sigh. She looked at me and smiled. I didn't know what to say to encourage her.
*****
I went back home. On my way, I passed him Copper. We looked to each othet for minutes. I didn't know what to do. I didn't know what to say. I froze, looked at him. He walked away, passed me. I turned around to see him. I saw his back until he disappear.
