Key to my Happiness (Damien Haas Fan Fiction)

Chapter 23

Damien's POV

As each day pass, I can't help but think, why did she broke up with me? Am I not enough? Is there someone else? Does she not love me anymore? All these questions are passing through my head and each time I think of it, I cry. Am I really unfortunate when it comes to love? Am I unlikable? Will I spend the rest of my life, alone? Gosh, I miss her so much. I'm such a wreck without her.

My friends noticed the physical changes on my body -  the sunken eyes, dry skin, chapped lips the obvious weight loss due to not eating in proper manner as well as the behavioral changes - I would speak less than usual, avoid eye contact, go to work late or don't come at all. They've tried to help me but every time they come near me I would shut them off... that was 3 months ago.

I did seek for help. Having a broken heart is not all fun and games. You thought nothing like this would ever happen but it will eventually. Some people can't handle the pain but I resisted the pain. I never surrendered. I know what's good for me and I'm happy my friends are actually helping me try and fight this. But there will always be days that you'll feel alone in a crowded room, and that's the most terrible feeling ever.

They told me to never give up on her, because she is worth it. She changed me into a better person. She was there when no one was, not only is she my girlfriend, but also my best friend. She always had my back, she brings out the best in me, no matter the situation is. I know she will come back, I know it. I just don't know when.

I've been seeing my therapist for a 3 months now and I think a lot has changed. I'm starting to act like my old self back. The ol' jolly big boy that makes dumb jokes and loves everything. I even started writing songs. It's my way of expressing my feelings.

I plugged in my earphones and listened to 'Broken Vow by Lara Fabian' while scrolling to all the photos I ever took of and with her.

"I close my eyes and dream of you and I, and then I realize there's more to life than only bitterness and lies. I close my eyes. I'd give away my soul to hold you once again and never let this promise end"

I would do anything for her. Anything to have her back.

Caroline's POV

6 months. It has been 6 months since I broke up with Damien. 6 lonely months. I've never been this depressed in my whole life. All this time I thought travelling alone would be the key to my happiness, but that didn't suffice my needs. I'm currently on the plane, on my way home to LA. I've been travelling most of the world. I miss everyone.

Before taking off, I facetimed Boze. It's been a while since I talked to her. She answered immediately. "Lin?" I smiled and greeted her. "Hey Boze, I miss you so much." I said in the verge of tears. "I miss you too, Lin. Where are you right now?" She asked. "Australia. I'm going back there" I said. "That's great to hear. I'll tell the rest of the crew so we can all pick you up." I smiled. "That's so sweet of you. So, how is everyone doing?" I asked. "Well, Joven is finally married." She said, "good for them." I said.

"Wes and Isabelle will get married in 2 months. They're prepping already." Boze kept updating about everyone's lives and I zoned out... thinking that if I didn't broke it off with Damien. We would finally get married, soon. Turns out I'm just afraid and I didn't trusted Damien enough. "Hey. You okay?" She asked. "Huh? Oh yeah. Just thinking. How's Damien doing?" I asked. "He's actu" "Excuse me mam, we are taking off in 5 minutes. Please turn off any mobile devices and please fasten up your seatbelt." The stewardess politely told me. I left a sigh and said my goodbyes to Boze. She did the same.

I turned my phone off and looked at the window. "Goodbye Australia" I muttered before drowning myself on ballad music and closing my eyes to relax myself before facing the reality of what I left behind