I was born on July 23 and that makes me a Leo
That means I'm supposed to have a really large ego
I'm 5 foot 8. I weigh a hundred and sixty pounds
I don't know how to make up my mind, and I'm a sucker for a guy with dark hair
And clean sneakers
I'm still learning how to be myself
I'm often annoying and loud around people
Yet I'm quiet and reserved when I'm with myself
I was born head first and I've been looking at myself ever since
I like water... a lot.
I've been told that I'm bad at understanding people
And people say that it feels like I'm trying to hard
Sometimes it's because I am, and secretly I get really nervous
Every time someone gets close enough to touch me
I have this odd fascination with things like superheroes and books
I assume it's because I usually find myself dedicating time to things
That will never become a reality
That's also why I tend to fall in love with men
Who would never love me back
I know it sounds crazy, but it's actually much easier than it seems
And to be honest, I think it's safer that way
See relationships, they often remind me that I'm not afraid of commitment or falling in love
But I'm scared of what's gonna happen
The moment that my lover doesn't love me anymore
I'm clumsy. Yesterday, I tripped over my pride and I landed on my confidence and it fell apart like a dandelion in the wind
Now I can't even tell who I want to trust
I've never been in love, but I have this heart with a hole
I got it from beating myself up over things I can't change
I know it sounds weird but sometimes,
I wonder what everyone says about me when I'm not around
I wonder what the world would do if it found out
About all the things that I truly think about
I've got a mind that's overflowing with really, really loud thoughts
And a graveyard in my closet, I'm afraid that if I let you see my skeletons
You'll grind my bones into powder and get high on my fault lines
Hi, I am a real living person
I enjoy personality quizzes, people watching
And laughing for absolutely no reason at all
But I don't allow myself to cry as often as I need to
I have solar-powered confidence, I have a battery-operated smile
My hobbies include editing my past memories, hiding behind a fake personality
And trying to convince myself that I'm someone worth knowing
I don't know much, but I do know this:
I know that my brain is full of memories
I know that my phone plays my playlist when I tell it to and I know
It reminds me that I still have many wonderful years ahead of me.
