His Sunshine (Suga fanfiction BTS)

Hana: Pain

"I always prepare two masks, hiding my true self behind the defensive image" -At Dawn from AGUST'D mixtape.

Min Yoongi didn't think it'd be this difficult to cope with pain. Inside of his comfortably dark room, his despair took place. His milky colored skin filled with goosebumps as the cool breeze touched him. He embraced the soft blanket and wrapped himself up like a taco. Min Yoongi touched his face and felt the dry tear stains. He hardly cried in front of anyone. Everyday he kept on a smile, but behind his helpless grin stood his other half.

A much weaker half.

His head hurt from thinking so much, and the waterfall of tears that were shed didn't help the situation because it caused his head to throb. Min Yoongi wanted to sleep to distract himself from reality and escape his depression. The problem was, every bundle on nerves in his body ached with tension. He felt like someone had ran over him with a semi. There was only one solution to his problem.

Yoongi reached over toward the mini fridge beside his bed and grabbed a beer. He popped the lid open by slamming it against the fridge door. Instantly after opening it, he drank the alcohol. He devoured the beer as if his life depended on it. Drowning his sorrows in the toxic liquid was the best option he had. The drink would relax his muscles and cause him to forget. This was his medicine. It helped him let go of the pain he endured, and lift weight off his shoulders.

Once the bottle was completely empty he grabbed another, and another, and another after that. After he had finished the last bottle in the fridge, the sour aftertaste hit him and he scrunched his face. Min Yoongi threw the bottle frustrated, and the glass shattered.

"When will I ever be good enough?" he thought.

No matter how hard he tried, he couldn't please anyone. No one understood him. He once had hope in the people he trusted the most. He wanted to pursue a dream that was almost impossible to achieve. When he told the others around him about his dream to pursue music they all laughed. Even the people he depended on the most let him down. Family, friends, they all laughed at him. Min Yoongi was alone.

All he could do now was, wait for the liquor to kick in and poison him. So he lie back down in bed and closed his eyes. Perhaps tomorrow would be a better day. That was all the hope he could cling on to. Finally the chemicals that were in the drinks he gulped kicked in, relaxing him. Min Yoongi closed his eyes and allowed the poison to put him to sleep.

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Hello! It's me the boring author. So, I did change the first chapter because I originally wrote two scenes and published the other without fully thinking it through. This new draft that I'm updating though will keep the story flowing so.... anyways.

In this scene, SUGA does not exist yet. I have just finished listening to the Agust'd mixtape and was inspired by Min Yoongi's story before he became famous so I decided to write a fanfiction. This is based off of some lyrics from the mixtape so... hope you enjoy this less crappier version.