Recovery

Part Two

The team were all sat waiting around when Voight came out of his office, "new case, Two females found dead-"

"Hang on, wheres Halstead?" Antonio said interrupting.

"I got a call from Gabby last night, Jay was at the bar. He was very drunk and he almost attacked Casey, Gabby said he like grabbed hold of him because he wouldn't give him his keys and then he got them back and drove home I guess" Kim said

"Yeah I had a call from Trudy this morning. I patrolman pulled Jay over last night but he just said he was tired after working... look I know it's hard Erin not being here but I know what happened and you know what happened and she is gone."

"Maybe I should find him" Antonio said

"Yeah ok. An hour tops"

"Yep" Antonio said as he grabbed his jacket and ran down the stairs.

Jay's POV

I was passed out on the bed when I heard constant knocking at the door. I pushed myself up from the bed and walked to the door.

I opened the door and saw Antonio, "What do you want Tony?" I said using the door to support me.

"What are you doing Jay, this isn't you. We need you at work"

"No you don't. What's the point she's gone I'm gone"

"You know what happened Jay"

"Oh really... I didn't know that Antonio"

"Hey look, I get it. Your upset, I have been through this before as well but you can grieve but try not to lose everything in the process."

"You know what..." I turned around and walked to my jacket and pulled my Badge out. I walked back to Antonio as put it in his hand, "You Guys may need me... but I don't need you" I said before shutting the door.

Nobody's POV

Antonio walked straight into the bullpen and he just looked at Voight, "Well where is he?"

Antonio placed the badge on the desk and pushed it forward as Voight picked it up, "he made his choice then" he turned around to walk into his office but Antonio followed him, "no no Voight he isn't thinking straight. Jay always knows what he wants and what he doesn't and this is the job which he wants."

"Get him back then Dawson"

"Yeah I'll try" He said as Voight walked into his office.

Antonio turned around and saw Mouse looking worried from behind his desk, "you've seen this before right?"

"Yeah I have quite a few times. It what he doesn't when something like this happens"

"Can you talk to him?"

"I normally just let him deal with it but I'll try this time."

Jay was lying on the top of his bed when he turned his head and looked at his phone. He picked it up and pressed dial and put the phone to his ear. He waited for an answer but it went straight to voicemail,

"I can't believe you left. You're a coward Erin. I loved you and you just cleared your desk without telling me. I don't even know how you expected me to be okay with his, I'll never be okay with this. You ruined my life Erin and hope you never come back!" Jay ended the call and threw his phone down onto bed.

Jay got up and quickly changed his clothes before he left the apartment. He drove and drove but he didn't really know where he was going. After about around an hour Jay found himself sat in a bar which he has been in before but he knew it wasn't for an good reasons.

He was sat drinking his beer when he heard someone come up behind him then sit down next to him, "Your a little far out of your
area mr detective"

"Umm not a detective anymore. Just wanna get drunk"

"Rough times huh" the guy chuckled to himself.

Jay sat staring at the wall when he turned to him, "you got any stuff?"

"What kind of stuff?"

"You know what kind of stuff idiot"

"This better not be a stitch up"

"Are you going to give it to me or not" Jay said as he threw a pile of money down on the bar.

The guy slid the small bag across the bar and Jay grabbed it before dropping it into his pocket, "nice doing business with you officer"

"Not a detective anymore... just getting drunk"

The guy left and Jay down the rest of his beer before getting up and leaving the bar. He got in his car and drove home. He sat on a breakfast stool in the kitchen with a beer and he was sat staring down at the stuff he bought still thinking about Erin.

He grabbed the bag and tipped some out on to the counter top and as he lined it up, he looked at the two lines and didn't hesitate. As he rolled up the dollar on the side and he did it. He felt an electrifying feeling through his body and he got up off the stool and collapsed on the couch. He took a deep breath as he let the drugs go into to system. He felt a relief, like he didn't have anything to care about anymore and like he was in his own world without anyone bothering him.

The next morning

Mouse was stood knocking at his door but there was no answer. "Come on Jay open up. I know you are here, I saw your car"

Mouse knocked a few more times before he walked back to the hallway. He pulled out his phone which was ringing and put it to his ear, "Hey it's Antonio"

"Yeah I got no answer"

"What you gonna do?"

"I know what to do. I'll be back soon" Mouse put away his phone and rushed to his car and drove away.

At Chicago med

Will was stood working on the computer filling in files when he saw Mouse walking over to him, "You alright Mouse?"

"Yeah I need to talk to you"

"Yeah sure come on"

Mouse followed Will into the staff room
And Will leaned up against the table, "You alright then, I was gonna come see Jay later at the district but he hasn't be answering"

"Yeah I wouldn't bother"

"Right Mouse what's going on?"

"Erin took that job in New York"

"Shit... How's Jay?"

"No one knows. He handed his badge in, getting drunk every night doing god knows what."

"Have you not seen him?"

"Antonio saw him a the other day but he just gone like crazy since Erin left. He pretty much attacked Casey at Mollys and acting and doing stupid stuff. I'm actually worried this time"

"I'll sort it"

"How?"

"Because he'll listen to me. He may scream and shout at me to go away but he always listens"

"Well I'd do it quick cause he may have not be able to stop himself from losing Erin, he's gonna lose himself his friends, family and his job"

"He'll be okay Mouse"

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