{A Wattpad Featured Story & Wattys 2018 Long List Book}
Highest Rank // #22 in Teen Fiction
Lennon Reese has always been quiet but after being sexually assaulted she has shut herself off from the world. She finds solace in writing all of her evasi...
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I needed to talk to Rowan. I hated to say it but I missed him. He was the only person who understood what I was going through. He knew so much more about me than any other person. I wanted to tell him that I was sorry for overreacting but I didn't know how to say it. What do you say to a person who you told that they were just as bad as the guy who raped you?
Regardless of what I was going to say, I needed to see Rowan. I told my parents where I was going and left the house to walk over to Rowan's. The whole way there I thought about how I could apologize to him. I knew now that I should have been grateful it was him who found it rather than him. But I still couldn't shake the feeling of being embarrassed. Did he see me as a broken girl who was used by a guy for his own evil deeds. Or did he see me as Lennon the girl he was friends with as a child?
The day had been boring in itself. I didn't have anyone to sit with at lunch like always and on the bus I fell asleep like always. My life had a natural routine but Rowan messed that all up when he came back into my life after all these years.
I saw him leave school early. I didn't know if he was ill or what was going on and I took this as my chance to tell him I was sorry.
Rowan's vehicle was at his house when I walked up the block to his home. I saw his mother's car and decided to stop in and see if Rowan was home or if she knew where he was. I needed to talk to him and get it done and over with. Get all of the awkwardness out of the way.
I walked up to the front door and was about to ring the doorbell but was put in pause. Rowan's mom opened the door before I got the chance to knock. Her face was full of fear and she had mascara stains on her face. Rowan's brother was right behind her, they both looked like they were leaving in a rush.
"Oh Lennon, sorry dear." She said, wiping her eyes making the makeup smear more.
"Jenny what's wrong?" I asked concern.
"Rowan. He's... he's..." She choked. She held her hand up to her mouth and bit back a sob.
"Rowan's in the hospital." Lachlan finished for his mother.
What? Rowan's in the hospital?
"Is he okay?" I asked worried. I had no clue what happened to Rowan. Did he get in a car accident?
Jenny shook her head. "I don't know. We are on our way now." She said, nodding to the car. "Do you want to ride with us?"
I thought for a moment, of course I wanted to know if Rowan was okay but I couldn't bring myself to face him, in the hospital of all places. I didn't think I could apologize to him with all of his family there. This was a time where his family needed to be with him. They needed to be the ones there for him. I would just get in the way.
"No, thank you though. I don't want to invade your family. But please let me know if he's okay." I stepped out of her way so she could go past me.
