five weeks. almost a month since you fell asleep, and you won't wake up.
do i say fuck you?
do i apologize?
is it all my fault?
i ran into your mom today. i was picking up stuff for dad at the grocery store, and i saw her, and for the first time in days, i actually smiled.
we didn't talk about you too much. oh, who am i kidding? we talked about you and only you for a good fifteen minutes. we both got teary eyed, but it's alright.
i miss you so much.
today's monday, and more stuff is taped to your locker. when i got to school, gray was waiting at mine. i guess dad called him, told him what happened on friday night. yeah, i had a really bad night, but i don't wanna bore you with any of it.
dad told him to 'keep an eye on me' throughout the school day. ha! i was way more worried about gray. but he doesn't open up much, and i should know that. but i want him to talk to me, ya know? does he let his feelings out to you? of course he does, i mean, you're twins. e, i'm falling without you and i can't stop.
anyway, that's all for now. i'll drop this one off later, and maybe this time, the doctors won't have fight me out of your room.
-elise
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wrote five chapters in one night ooohhhh
