Players Don't Mate

Chapter 19 - Ugly truth

PICTURE OF DAMON----->

Melissa's POV :

I stormed away, tears streaming down my face; I doubt they care.

He said he never wanted to see me again. This was a mistake. EVERYTHING was a mistake. I wish I haven't even came here. I should have stayed with James no matter what he was doing to me. At least then, I wasn't hurting the way I am right now.

SO WHAT he used to hit me? SO WHAT he almost killed me? SO WHAT he fucking hated me? SO WHAT he sexual harrassed me? SO WHAT SO WHAT SO WHAT !

At least he never broke my heart...All the hitting, yelling and torturing was nothing compared to the pain I'm feeling right now.

I knew it. I just did. I knew Nash was better off without me. I know it's horrible James killed his mom but I-I never had anything to do with it. I never wanted to have anything to do with James anyway! It's not my fault I was sent to him. It's not my fault, it's not my fault, it's not my fault I kept repeating the thought in my head but ... was it?

I always knew I pushed the people I love away and it's all just hapenning all over again. Maybe, I expected it from Nash, just maybe BUT FROM CRYSTAL? Never. I thought we were best friends...sisters...living together; that was until she said the words I've never expected her to...

"HONESTLY, I DON'T GIVE A FUCK ABOUT YOU ANYMORE YOU CAN JUST GO TO HELL I'M NOT ABOUT TO LOSE MY MATE BECAUSE OF YOU AND YOUR STUPID FOSTER.FUCKING DAD. ENOUGH WITH THIS ACT OF YOURS. IM SICK OF YOU ALWAYS GETTING ALL THE ATTENTION AND IM SICK OF BEING THE THIRD WHEEL. FROM NOW ON, WE LIVE IN THE SAME HOUSE BUT WE DONT KNOW EACH OTHER. SHY AND SWEET CRYSTAL IS GONE AND I'M A NEW PERSON NOW."

My jaw dropped and the tears wouldn't stop themselves from streaming down. Had I really put her through all this? Was she really always the third wheel? Was she about to lose her mate because of me? Because of my problems? My foster dad? Or to top it all BECAUSE I EXIST?

Seriously, why can't James just come and kill me like right now, actually why haven't he killed me yet? Why torture me when he's eventually going to kill me at the end?

I think I'd raher be dead right now. What's there to live for? My mate? Oh sure, he just hates me so fucking much and never wants to see me ever again because it's apparently my fault that his mom died.

My best friends? Come again...who Crystal? Apparently, I've always gotten the attention so now she hates me too. Or are we talking about Silver? She probably hates me too for making her move all the way to god knows where, JUST FOR ME. Just to get away from James, because she wanted to protect ME.

Was Crystal right? Was it always about me? EVERYTHING? Was I always getting the attention? Was I hurting her all this time? DAMMIT! I always overthink all the freaking time! Why can't I at least think about myself for once, is that selfish?

Where am I going to go now? Because there is no way in hell am I going back to live with Silver and Crystal. I think I've caused them enough trouble already...EVERYONE IS BETTER OFF WITHOUT ME! What am I good for anyway? All I do is get drunk and get laid. WHY THE HELL WOULD CRYSTAL THINK I'M GETTING ALL THE ATTENTION?

Is getting drunk what she wants to do? Getting laid? Losing her parents? Losing her mate? Her family? Her friends? HER LIFE! Because if by getting all the attention meant losing everything then YES I am getting all the attention.

STUPID mate. STUPID Crystal. STUPID foster dad. STUPID me. STUPID life. STUPID STUPID STUPID, everything is stupid....