Players Don't Mate

Chapter 21 - Notes

PICTURE OF KYLA ---->

Melissa's POV :

Great.

JUST GREAT.

So I basically just told him that I stalked him for the past month...

It's really ot a big deal though? Right? Right...Who am I kidding? I just proved that I was still weak. I told him that I watched him and Crystal for fuck's sake! While they didn't give two shits about me or my life. But I did...I was worried about them everyday when it should have been ME, I was worried about.

No, I'm not selfish like I thought I was. I really am not. I'm such an idiot, I have blamed myself for everything all my life when it really wasn't....

I wasn't my fault. 

IT IS THEIR FAULT.

Call me a bitch. Call me selfish. Call me heartless. Call me whatever the hell you want but all I have to say is ENOUGH. Not everything in this world is my fault. HE broke my heart. HE made me cry. HE hurt me. HE did, I didn't.

Stupid, stupid, stupid!

I have let my guard down again. You know for a second there, he almost had me. I really thought he was sorry, I could've forgivin' him but god dammit that's enough!

I don't need him neither do I need her. They can go ride eachother for all I care. YES, it hurts but I'm sick of all this. I've been living in a hell hole all my life, it's about damn time I do something about it.

And I will.

I have Damon and Chase. Not to mention the lovely Liam and Aria. I have a family. Most importantly a family that wouldn't hurt me. Too bad Crystal fucked me over. Too bad my mate is a dickhead. Too bad Silver doesn't give two shits. TOO BAD, because they will never get the chance to meet the new me.

Yes, that's the right. The 'new' me. I'm sick of being the drunk pathetic girl. The bitch. The slut. The girl that bangs anything or anyone. The weak Melissa. The stupid, pathetic, weak Melissa. This is all going to change.

I just have to set my mind to it...

I wiped my tears away and fixed myself up. I waited a little longer in the bathroom so it wouldn't look like I was crying, I didn't want to look pathetic in front of him...more than I already did. He was basically in ALL my friggin' classes. 

I straightened out my dress and ran my fingures through my hair. I reapplied my mascara back on including a little bit of lip gloss. Once I was satisfied with my work, I headed out the door to my next class.

"Why hello there again beautiful"

I recognized that annoying voice. I snapped my head around to see who it was....YES. I told you it was an 'annoying' voice.

"Hello there to you too Jakey-boy" I teased. I had Jake in most of my classes and it kills me to say this but well...he wasn't bad. He was super SUPER annoying but funny. He's also quiet the flirt which honestly I don't mind it since he's hot.

"Now now beautiful what did I say about calling me Jakey-boy?" He muttered. Oh yeah, he hated it when I called him. But I did anyway. It's catchy and I like it. Do you blame me?

"Now now Jakey-boy what did I say about calling me beautiful?" I mocked him. I just liked getting on his nerves as much as he liked getting on my own. I can see him getting irritated which is exactly the best part about my teasing.