Players Don't Mate

Chapter 20 - Too late

 PICTURE OF ARIA ---->

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Nash's POV :

"What have I done?" Both Crystal and I said at the same time.

I can understand where my statement is coming from...but Crystal? What the hell did SHE do? All I know is that I messed up badly...I have screwed it all up and I don't know what to do anymore....I HAVE TO APOLOGIZE of course and deny everything I've told her! 

Hell yes I wanted her to be my mate! She sure as hell isn't the cold and heartless one because...I AM! I just kind of..rejected my mate WHAT THE FUCK! Why couldn't she have told me everything before...why did she have to keep this all from me.

She could've just trusted me ... but right now, after all the horrible things I said, I don't think she's ever going to trust me.

All these years I've been feeling pity for myself over losing my mom -- while my mate...SHE LOST BOTH HER MOM AND DAD! That's just selfish of me...I still couldn't believe all this....all the things she's been through... it seemed like the events were replaying in front of me....

Her parents dying in a car crash when she was four,

Moving in with James,

Getting abused,

Sexual harassed,

Beaten up,

Unconscious,

Ran away,

And....Ran away ... again.

By the time Silver's been gone, I've already destroyed my living room....by everything I mean, EVERYTHING. I was angry at everyone and everything but most importantly I was angry with myself. How could I have been so ignorant and unobservant...?

I looked around the room and noticed everyone still seated in the same position. Crystal was sitting beside me on the couch with her knees up to her chest while she held her head in her hands and cried non-stop.

I really wanted to know what's the deal with her..? What did she do to Melissa? I mean she's nice, what could she have possibly done that I haven't already...

"Uhh, Crystal.." I trailed off not really knowing how to form a sentence...my voice was shaking and tears have been threatening to fall. Dammit I'm acting like a girl, an Alpha is not supposed to cry and show any weakness to any of the pack members.

Crystal looked over at me like she had a feeling what I was about to ask ... "It's fine, I know what to you want to ask" So she knew...

"Uh, yeah...what happened...you know...you...a-and Melissa..." If I weren't about to explode into tears, I would've laughed at my stupidity, look at me! I can't even talk! I'm such a freaking girl.

She sighed. "I'm just as bad as you are...probably even worse..." She can't be worse NO WAY was she worse. I've done way worse than whatever she's done. She's probably going to say I stole her cookies or or...dropped her ice cream cone on purpose or ditched her... She's too nice to do anything that could be worse than what I've done.

"I-I after the whole thing between you two, I went after her but couldn't find her so I headed home--I thought 'hey, she'll be there idiot!' but she wasn't...I walked over to her room and her stuff were all there so I didn't think she'd run away, and believe me I called her and called her and called alot but she wouldn't answer, I tried again and again till she answered a--and I honestly thought I was going to tell her something like 'Mel, come home I'm worried about you and everything is going to be okay' but I didn't..." She trailed off wiping her tears away.