I turned around slowly and he pulled me closer to himself. I don't want to look at his face right now, minutes before I drown in to my own tears.
What do you want? I asked while I was trying to look somewhere else from his eyes.
Can we talk?
Haven't you said enough? Look, after breaking my heart like that you don't have any right of getting in front of me and saying these words. Don't you think that it wasn't that hard for me to move on? It was so god damn hard. I said while I was bringing my voice to a higher level.
But now, I have so much things going in my life. I am happy and I am with the man I want to be with. At first I thought that we could spend some time as being 'friends' but how dump was I? We can't do that remember, because you decided to chose another way in your life and so did I.
He looked on the ground. We were in the middle of a street which was out of nowhere. I turned my back and started to walk.
Jen!
I stopped, I closed my eyes and took a very deep breath. And I kept walking, I just wanted to be alone with my tears. I wasn't going to cry in front of him. NO! He shouldn't know that I am this weak.
I got into my car and before starting to drive, I said that Justin will never ever know about this to my self. I of course love him so much. I started to drive, but not to home. To the place I always go, every time I feel down. The place who takes me out of all of the crowd in the city. I got out of the car and sat on it, by the time I was trying to put my earphones. I still couldn't believe the things he has to me. One drop slowly went down trough to my face and after few minutes I was crying and sobbing.
30 minutes later.
I got 3 calls from Justin, but I wasn't brave enough to see talk to him right now. For a minute I just wanted to run away, run away from all my life and every single person I know. I opened my eyes by the voice of a car parking next to mine. It was Brad. What? So he has been following me? He came and sit next to me without saying a word. He was sad I could see that from his actions and the way he breathes. He caught me while I was looking at him so I turned my head in the second. I saw him smiling.
How did you know that I was going to be here?
This was the first place we went while we were trying to get away from the paparazzi.
He still remembers.
I looked down and started to play with my black bracelet.
I'm sorry, I didn't want to make you feel bad with the things I have said to you before.
I locked my eyes into his, he seemed really sad.
I swear I thought we could start all over again and be cool with each other. Even though we aren't together anymore, my mom still likes you so much and every time she calls me she asks about you.
I was still in contact with his mother and she was really nice. While I was still sitting next to him I realized how much I missed him.
Please don't hate me, even if you do please don't hate me more.
I don't hate you.
The world thought I hated him, but I have never. He did it because he was in love with someone else. And I tried to understand him.
After a while of silence,
So I have seen that you have been pregnant 50 times this year, can I ask you how did that happen?
I giggled.
Don't even get me started with that.
He laughed.
I was feeling much better than the time I came here.
*phone ringing*
It was Justin, I had to open it before he kills me.
Finally! I have been calling you in the past 2 hours, where the hell have you been? Why didn't you answer any of my calls? I was worried about you.
Sorry baby I left my phone in my bag, we were in a really deep chat I will be home soon.
I'm waiting, I love you.
I love you too.
I shut the phone and stand up slowly.
Are you going?
Yes.
Am I going to be able to see you soon?
Who knows, we will see.
I got in the car and started to drive the way trough home. I wish this was just a nightmare and I didn't see him in real life, even if I did I wish we had nice time together.
I'm home.
Welcome baby, I made you some launch.
Thank you. & I gave him a kiss, I have missed him and only thing I want to do right now is to be with him but no one else. When we were eating he asked,
How was your meeting with your friend?
I cleared my mouth and go on.
It was nice, we are planning a new project. I lied.
That sounds exciting!
I smiled. I was lying to my husband an that was the worst feeling someone can ever taste.
AT NIGHT
I am going to sleep.
Oh I thought you'd watch Arrow with me?
No, I am really tired. It has been a long day for me.
Okay baby, good night. I love you more than anything.
Good night, I love you too.
He kissed my forehead.
With all those thoughts in my mind about Brad, I just wanted to let them go and left myself into the peace in sleep.
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My dear Tyla, thank you for supporting me in my every single step, I love you so much & I couldn't have done it without you. :)
