His hands were on my wrist and I was grabbing him closer to me in each passing second. He pressed his head onto mine and smiled. I got much closer to him and hugged him.
I missed you. I whispered.
He kissed my hair and started to play with them. I wasn't feeling guilty at all. The thing I had for Brad was overload at the moment, I didn't want to go back to my room and see Justin after this. I wanted to spend the rest of my day with him.
I don't want to go back to the hotel.
I'm not letting you go in there, I want you next to me.
And so did I. I wanted to be next to him, I grabbed his hand again we started to walk. When Brad's mom told me that we had so much love for each other to throw it all away, we just needed some time apart and we will realize how much we will miss each other, she was right. I have never thought that it'd be true. The thing I was doing still made me think about Justin. But it wasn't the right time to think over him, I was happy. I laid my head on Brad's shoulder and we continued to walk.
*phone ringing*
It's Justin.
I pressed the open button and started to listen the things he will say.
I think about it a lot, and I realized that my life is so meaningless without you. I am sorry, I love you.
I was stuck between two men.
Good.
I made reservations for tonight at 7pm in a Italian restaurant, it's our last night in here. By the way where are you?
I am out taking some air I will be there soon.
I hang up the phone, well my husband still loves me but I am in love with someone else, how am I even going to deal with this?
You have to go? He asked and stopped walking.
I will stay few more minutes. Brad can we act like this never happened? I mean can we keep this private for a while?
Oh, sure. However you want.
Thank you.
I kissed him one more time and started to walk back to the hotel. Sooner or later Justin had to know, that I was still in love with Brad.
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I'm ready! I shouted.
We were acting like we didn't fight at all.
OK, I am coming.
I wore a red dress, and white high heels. Justin was with jeans, white t-shirt. (as always) He grabbed my hand and kissed it. I smiled.
When we go back to home, I have to go to London for 2 days. Is it okay for you?
Oh sure, and I have to pick up dresses for the Academy Award night.
I totally forgot about that.
We left the hotel and a got into a black jeep, we didn't talk to each other all the way to the restaurant.
This morning, after you left. I sat down all by myself and think about what I did wrong. I can promise you now, that I will never ever break your heart again. Because I love you, and seeing you like that makes me wanna kill myself.
Even though I wasn't feeling the same things to him as the way I used to I grabbed his hand and said,
That's okay, I love you too.
In the whole evening, he talked and I smiled. I was so busy thinking about Brad, and how I was going to tell Justin about it.
It was such a lovely night thank you. I said.
Maybe I could try to reconnect with Justin, at the end he was my husband, and I love him. Maybe not as much as Brad, but still.
When we came back to the hotel, he throw all his stuff away and started to kiss me. His lips were pressing to mine slowly and he was taking my dress off. He turned my back to himself and made my dress slip down. He slowly started to kiss my shoulder and went up to my neck. I turned my face to him and continued to kiss him from his lips. He laid me down to the bed and slowly kissed my whole body, starting with my breasts and went down. I took off his pants & let him do his job, he continued to kiss me more passionately from my lips while I was moaning...
He fell down next to me at the end and gave me another kiss.
It was amazing. I said.
You are amazing.
I got closer to himself and hugged him. I slowly closed my eyes and tried to sleep. But I couldn't, Brad was the only thing on my mind. When Justin slept I slowly came back and took my phone. It was 2 am.
Are you awake? I texted Brad and waited for him to reply.
Few minutes later someone knocked the door, our hotel room was big and it had 2 doors. It was like two rooms together. I got up and slowly closed the door of the room that Justin was sleeping in and went to open the door.
Hey. He leaned on to me and kissed me.
Hey, oh my god Brad what are you doing here? Justin is inside.
You asked me if I was awake or not, and here I am.
He came with his DC pjs which made me laugh because he looked like a 5 year old boy.
I just wanted to see you. He whispered.
I smiled.
I think, after seeing you I can sleep in peace. Good night Brad. I continued.
Good night, I love you. He kissed me one more time.
I waited for him to go and slowly closed the door. And went back to Justin. I got under the blanket and let myself to sleep.
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That Justifer part was for my best friend. You know who you are, I love you xx.
