Losing it a little || Second Book || Bellarke Story

Chapter 9 || Hey Romeo, ready to go

"Day 78:
Hey my princess it's me again. I have some teribble news. Murphy and Emori lost their kids. They were gonna have twins. Even it was early in the pregnancy Raven figured out how to use the echo in your mother's work place and we could see twins. But because Emori went teribble sick the twins lost their life. Murphy doesn't want to talk about it. I don't know what to do. If only you were here. You would know what to do. I want to talk with him about it but he shuts himself of from the rest even Emori. Pleas tell me what to do, I can't do this without you. You're the head and I'm the heart remember. I can't do this without you because you changed the way I walked and talked. You changed the way I look at the world. You changed the way my heart could feel. You showed me a love so deep I never knew existed. And now your gone. But our love it's because you changed me into me. So princess I'm looking at you pleas tell me what to do.

Loves Bellamy"

It's been 78 days since I first started reading my letters to her. And I slept more in her room on the chair, then in my own bed. But I love spending time with her. She makes me whole again. Because in the time I was in space I felt this hole inside of me. And Clarke fills that hole now.

But today at dawn was an important day because in the main time I was in contact with Octavia and yesterday she told me that today is the day that the bunker are going on the surface at dawn. I haven't been there since I went to get Abby. I together with the rest of my friends were gonna wait for them. We would take the rover and drive there.

I was stil siting at the bed side of Clarke. Rethinking about what we were gonna do. Until Murphy walked in.

"Hey Romeo, ready to go it's time."

"I'll be there soon Murphy"

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We were waiting outside for the bunker people. You could still see water droplets from the rain from this morning on the leaves. It was chilly winter was coming. I closed my jacket a little higher to close of the cold air in my neck. I looked around one last time to check on any danger when I heard the door lock I spun around in one quick move.

I saw Octavia slowly stepping outside taking it all in. It was a miracle to see my sister here standing outside being a leader of 1300 people I was so proud of her.

She turned around looking at all the things she could see. The lights catched her perfectly. If I had a camera now I would take this shot forever.

Slowly all the other people came out. It was so wonderful to see. People came out with all sort of bags. Of course they have to set up camp here. I looked at all sort of people. I was happy that the grounders and skykru finally came along.

I stopped looking when Octavia jumped in my arms with a tight hug. I hugged her tight back I missed her so much.

"Hey O"

"Hey bell"

"We are back bitches" she said to me in a playful way. I laughed at the memorie that came popping up.

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Camp was set up, they had a plan on what to do. Together they would rebuild the world. It was getting night and I had to get back to Clarke what if something happend to her. I took my goodbyes and together with the rest we went back to beccas lab. And ofcourse we would help to rebuild the world but I couldn't leave Clarke alone.

After a 1 hour drive we came at the lab. Abby greeted us warm, she stayed behind to stay with Clarke if something went wrong. I imediatly went to Clarke. I opend the door for the millionest time now. I clicked on the light switch and took her hand.

"Hey princess I'm back, it's night again. Wake up tomorrow, because I need you okay."

I went to sit on the chair took the 79th letter in my hand and began to read.

"Day 79:
Hey Princess it's me again the man who left you behind. I still blame myself for your death everyday. And let's be honest I'm sitting here with my 10th drink today. Drinking my guilt away even it's already been 2 and half years I still blame myself everyday. And thread by thread I come apart if brokenness is a piece of art. This must be my masterpiece. You are a princess, a survivor, a warior and my love and I shouldn't have left you behind. I still regret it everyday. But let's get back to the beginning I had a crush on you since I first saw you. I didn't admit that you must have noticed that. Because I was a warrior with a fighters mind and you were a battle I lost everytime. And when I first say you even I had a crush on you I was afraid to trust. Buy you gained that trust. And when I trusted you I was afraid to love you. And when I also first loved you I was afraid to lose you. And I eventually lost you. I just maked myself my 11th drink. I think it's time to end this letter. Just know Clarke griffin I love you and you will always have a spot in my heart no one can fill.

Love bellamy"

With the last words said I drifted of to sleep.

Wow this was a crappy chapter let's agree on that. But it had to be in it because you need to know what happend to the bunker people. Hope you guys still like it. Leave a comment and vote and follow my insta: @bellvrkee