I loved her

Chapter 2

Hello lovelies. Songs for this chapter are:

~Never Alone, Barlow Girl

~Right Now, One Direction

Sorry it took a while to update, been busy with some school shtuff. Xoxo Emily

Chapter 2>> Jaelyne's P.O.V

"How about Tommy?" Marrissa asked. I nodded my head in disagreement and kept eating my carrots. "Leo? No, he cant dance. Jay how is it that you, the most popular girl in school, don't have a date for the Spring Fling?" Our whole lunch period has been dedicated to bombard me with questions about the dance this Friday.

"Honestly, im not sure I want to go." I respond, keeping my eyes on the magazine in my hands. As I look up I notice the whole table staring at me. Their jaws slightly open. "Why wouldn't you want to go?" "How could you not want to go?" "Are you lesbian? Is that what this is about?" I stare at Lexi who shouted out that last one.

"Hey, Jay who's that new kid hanging out with Harry and Louis?" I look in her direction and see Niall looking back. Him and Harry seem to have shared a few words and were heading in our direction. "Oh my God. They're coming over here. Act natural." Marrissa hissed at us, and the poor freshman newbs that we have to guide around the school.

"Hello Jaelyne. Beautiful day eh?" Harry set his head on my shoulder, his breathe gliding down my neck. Cautiously I pulled away, "Er yeah- sure. It's ok I guess." Niall had begun to socialize with the girls, his eyes meeting mine every once in a while. After a few minutes of sheer torture, the bell rang, indicating that our lunch period was over.

As I started to walk into the hallway, a hand gripped tightly onto my arm. "Jay." Already knowing who it was I decided to ignore him and keep walking. My plan failing when he brought me closer to him. "Jay, Jaelyne. Listen to me. Please." Tyler pleaded.

"I know. I'm sorry, I screwed up. But I know one thing, I do love you." His blue eyes digging into my brown ones. "It's too late Ty. You had your second chance, and you blew it. You had me falling so hard for you. And now I'm as broken as I'll ever be." I reply, my voice getting softer towards the last few words. He let go of my arm and I took that as a chance to escape the memories that were flooding back.

My cheeks started to become wet with tears. I realized that I couldnt go to class like this, so my legs took me towards the bathroom. When I looked into the mirror, I finally broke down.

"When you look into the mirror, what do you see?" My mother asked me. "I see me." She rolled her eyes and started tickling me making me giggle. "Jaelyne, I want you to see everything I see." Her reflection in the mirror smiling down on me. Her question ringing in my ears. "Jaely, when I look at you I see real beauty. I see a small fragile little jar of happiness. Oh my dear," she sighed. "I need you to be strong, for me, for your sisters, for us. Ok, promise me you will be strong." I turned around and looked at her. Her sickness finally showing itself. I stuck out my pinkie and hers wrapped with mine almost instantly. "Promise."

I looked in the bathroom mirror. All I could see was a girl who was empty, who could never show love. A girl so broken, but her friends can never see through her façade. A girl who is tired of pretending that she is ok. A girl desperately in need of someone to hold her and tell her she was loved. All I could see was a girl that was dead on the inside.

"I'm so sorry mom. I failed you. I can't be strong anymore, I just

can't." I cried out. My shaking knees finally gave out, letting me fall to the floor. "Why did you leave me mom? Why couldn't you fight back? Why did you let that stupid tumor take you away from me? Can't you see that I need you! HOW CAN YOU EXPECT ME TO BE STRONG FOR EVERYONE ELSE WHEN- I can barely be strong for myself."

A.N I am in love with this chapter. I seriously can relate to Jaelyne right now. I swerr I'm crying, the feels. Gahh my hormones can go die in a hole. love you guys Xoxo Emily